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I've actually done my best
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to really not think about this
for 30 years...
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...let alone
talk out loud about it.
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Society has a weird view
towards women
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in these relationships.
There's so much misogyny.
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You're sort of pigeonholed
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into this girlfriend,
or ex-girlfriend,
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or you're... these roles,
and you're supposed to...
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um, sort of be cut
as a pathetic figure.
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I've gone as far
from being an artist
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in New York City,
as one can imagine,
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and I think that is a lot
because of his death.
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♪ No ♪
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He heard the whole of his person
in the music.
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Writing his second record
was so daunting.
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♪ Tonight, as I stand ♪
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It was a huge step forward
for him.
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But I haven't been able
to listen.
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That might sound crazy, but...
...I can't.
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♪ Just like a woman, yes... ♪
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I certainly was
a flawed parent.
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♪ Just like a woman ♪
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But he sure got me, you know?
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And he got exactly
where I came from,
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and understood...
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why I made the choices
I made in my life.
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No one has ever loved me
more or better...
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than he.
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Every human being
has music
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that only they can make.
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And it's my deepest form
of communication with people.
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It'll always keep on changing,
it'll always defy anything
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that tries to put people
in a box.
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♪ This is our last goodbye ♪
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♪ I hate to feel the love
Between us die ♪
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♪ But it's over ♪
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♪ Just hear this
And then I'll go ♪
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♪ You gave me more to live for
More than you'll ever know ♪
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There's things I wanna do
that I've never heard of.
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It's my life.
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♪ Yeah, this is
Our last embrace ♪
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♪ Must I dream
And always see your face? ♪
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I just love when men
use their voice
so unselfconsciously.
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I mean, he was literally
the best singer I've ever heard.
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And he was so amazed
by what female singers could do.
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Feminine, masculine,
he was and is my favorite.
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♪ Kiss me, please kiss me ♪
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♪ But kiss me
Out of desire, babe ♪
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When you really dig
into the lyrics,
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it's so sacred,
him recognizing his own...
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I guess,
you could call it "mortality."
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♪ I'll only make you cry
This is our last goodbye ♪
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I wanna be
songwriter Jeff.
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Jeff Buckley, songwriter.
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♪ Oh, ooh, ooh, ooh ♪
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He had a way of playing
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the most beautiful songs
you've ever heard.
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He could have literally been
doing anything musically
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that he wanted to do.
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♪ Signs that it's over ♪
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♪ Oh-oh, ooh ♪
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♪ It's o... o... over ♪
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First time
I heard Jeff sing...
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he was in the bassinet.
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One time I came in,
and I could hear him.
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He was vocalizing to the radio.
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♪ Ah, ah, ah ♪
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♪ Ah, ah, ah ♪
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The day I heard
"Ain't No Mountain High Enough,"
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boom, boom, boom, boom, boom.
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I thought, "Ooh, damn."
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"He's a singer."
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Music charged my life.
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Interviewer 1: A good childhood?
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Uh...
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It was a childhood.
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[over recording] My mom's
first-generation
Panamanian immigrant.
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Very good girl, brought up
with Voodoo-Catholic values.
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You know,
brought over to Anaheim,
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you know, that hellhole
in Southern California,
where Disneyland is.
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My parents had
high hopes for me.
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You know, immigrant parents,
their eldest child.
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I wanted to be an actress,
and sing and dance,
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and play the piano,
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but I had soiled
the family name,
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and dishonored them
having premarital sex.
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I met Timothy
in French class.
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He would do things like
pull one hair on my...
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Right? And I would turn around,
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and he would be
looking up.
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We were two kids
from abusive, crazy homes,
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and we just knew the world
better than anybody else.
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♪ Now, you wanna know
The reason ♪
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Seventeen at the time,
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I was already
a teenage pregnant mom.
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♪ Why I cheated on you ♪
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My parents thought
maybe I should give
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the baby up for adoption.
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But there was no choice for me
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but to go through
with the pregnancy.
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And I knew from the fifth month
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that I was never going
to see Tim again.
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♪ This little man had to try ♪
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First of all,
he was with somebody else.
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♪ To make love feel new again ♪
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Plus, he was determined
to be a singer-songwriter.
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This child was on me.
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♪ 'Cause there's just
A few things, honey ♪
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He split
before I was born.
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You know, he decided
not to be a father to me.
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You don't serve
your country, man.
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You serve life,
you serve people.
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TV, from the very beginning,
and also public schools,
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have been the great lobotomizer.
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Everything in the outer world
is not the world,
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the cars,
how much perfume you wear.
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The world is what's inside
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and what cats
pull out of themselves
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- all through time.
-I said to him,
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"You gotta go
pursue your dreams,
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you go."
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But... my dreams
of being an actress,
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or being a concert pianist...
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that was all gone.
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Jeff and I
sort of raised each other.
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Well, his father
wasn't there,
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but this woman loved him
with all her heart
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and didn't hesitate
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to make him feel loved
at every chance she had.
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He would come and put
his little hands on my face,
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and say, "We're gonna be okay,
mommy, right?"
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And I'd go, "Yes, we are, honey.
We're just fine."
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He... had to take care of her.
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And he was feeling like
she had been hurt...
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and feeling horrible about that.
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♪ Perhaps it is the color
Of the sun cut flat ♪
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♪ And covering the crossroads
I'm standing at ♪
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Jeff was like having
a grandfather watching over me
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and telling me
who was okay to date,
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and who wasn't.
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♪ But Mama
You've been on my mind ♪
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When I was a kid,
I always felt really proud
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if I could roll a joint for all
the grownups at the party.
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I never did it,
but, like, I always...
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"I wanna do it, let me do it."
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I now remember the day
that my mom called me over
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to the reclining chair,
and tried to explain to me
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that if I told anybody
that they did this stuff,
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they would go to jail.
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♪ And all because of the man ♪
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♪ That got away ♪
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When Jeff was little,
before I even made coffee,
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music would go on, constant.
Constant, constant, constant.
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Judy Garland. Huh!
"The Man That Got Away."
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I love that song.
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And it was very important
to us.
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♪ Oh, I want
A whole lotta love ♪
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My stepfather, Ronald,
he was a car mechanic.
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He was the one
that introduced me
to Led Zepplin.
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That changed my whole life.
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Ron would turn
the stereo on loud enough,
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the whole block could hear,
and there would be Little Jeff
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laying on top of the speakers
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with his little body
vibrating to the music.
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Music, it was my mother,
it was my father.
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It was the best thing
in my life.
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I see in the newspaper
this quarter-page ad.
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Tim Buckley
made a name for himself
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as one of pop music's
genuine innovators.
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Over the course of nine albums,
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he incorporated
the prettiest of folk music,
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the most extreme
of free-form jazz
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and the raunchiest
of rock and blues.
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And I thought, "Wow,
maybe this is an opportunity
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for my son
to get to know his father."
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I looked at Jeff and said,
"Hey, would you like to go
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see your dad perform?"
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♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh ♪
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♪ I'm singin' Sally go round ♪
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Jeff was rocking
to the music...
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♪ Saddest thing
In this whole wide world ♪
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...and looking up at his dad.
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Tim had his eyes closed,
but he had to know he was there,
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had to be aware of his presence.
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♪ Sally, don't you go down ♪
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When he went back
to the green room,
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I looked down and said,
"Do you wanna go see him now?"
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And I could feel
Jeff clutching my skirt...
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...you know,
kind of hanging on,
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pressing close,
and looking around.
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I couldn't see Tim at first,
and then I heard, "Jeff!"
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"Hi, bud. How are you doing?"
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Jeff sat on his lap,
and he started talking,
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what his favorite color was,
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"My dog's name is King,"
what grade he was in.
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About ten minutes later,
Tim said,
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"We'd like to take him home
with us tonight."
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I'm going...
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"Yeah, you can take him home
right now,
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but you better not fuck up."
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I stayed with him a week.
Easter vacation.
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He had an adopted son,
he had a new wife,
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he had a whole other family.
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Four days later,
I got a telephone call.
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Tim had to get back
into the studio,
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and put Jeff on a bus
in Santa Monica.
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"It was so much fun.
My dad has a lot of friends."
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"And he gave me this."
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I said, "You save that, buddy."
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No calls were returned.
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It was two months before.
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I have a great deal
of pain and anger,
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but I have a great deal
of love and compassion...
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for Tim.
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Some things that he did
completely embarrass me to hell.
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But the things that were great
hold up against anything.
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Jeff wasn't even mentioned
in any of the obituaries.
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By the time
I was in high school,
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got my first electric guitar.
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It was a black
Memphis Les Paul copy.
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Yeah, just fell in
with the wrong crowd
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and got a band together,
of course.
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♪ Eternal life
Is now on my trail ♪
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♪ Got my red glitter coffin,
Man ♪
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♪ Just need one last nail ♪
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♪ While all these
Ugly gentlemen ♪
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♪ Play out their foolish games ♪
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♪ There's a flaming red horizon
That screams our names ♪
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At 15,
Jeff was practicing
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Al Di Meola every night.
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That was a fixation I had
up until the time
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I was, maybe, 16.
And I can play anything I hear.
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My high-school bullies
called me "faggot."
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And their fucking new-wave
girlfriends stenciled, "Geek,"
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on my fucking Ovation Viper
electric guitar case.
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♪ Roxanne ♪
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♪ You don't have to put on
The red light ♪
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Jeff had an ability
to mimic the vocal cadences,
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and the inflections of people
he was listening to.
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♪ Roxanne ♪
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♪ You don't have to wear
That dress tonight ♪
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♪ Walk the streets for... ♪
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It's in exact album... It's...
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'Cause, you know,
a lot of people
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would tune it down a step,
so they could hit the note.
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This is the exact...
It's... It's album pitch.
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♪ Put on the red light ♪
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It's the same key.
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I used to wanna be
a guitar aficionado.
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But the thing I was gonna learn
to do best was songwriting.
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Music and words.
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I decided to make
a woman of music,
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and give myself to her.
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And at another point,
I decided to make
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a man of music
and give myself to him.
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When you're a kid,
people assume
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that you have no mind
of your own,
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which, at a very early age,
I did.
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I put so many things
onto music for me...
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so that I wouldn't shrink
into a black...
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universe.
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St. Ann's in Brooklyn
wanted Jeff to sing
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at a tribute to Tim.
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♪ Oh, I never asked
To be your mountain
I never asked to fly ♪
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I said, "No."
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♪ Remember when you came to me ♪
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"I will never, ever
perform that music."
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- ♪ Told me of his lies ♪
-"I've got my own music."
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I said,
"You know what, son?"
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"Give it some thought."
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"There's gonna be
some really amazing artists
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in the lineup."
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So, I said, "Okay,
but I just wanna come on
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and sing, and come off."
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"This is not a springboard."
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"This is something
really personal."
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And they told me, "Well,
we don't know how good he is,
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so we'll put him
with other artists
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to fill in any gaps
in his talents."
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Dangerous situations
appeal to me.
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There had been a bit of buzz
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that Tim Buckley's son
would be there.
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I figured,
"Hey, what's the worst
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that can happen?"
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[on microphone] Um...
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The luminaries
of downtown were there.
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This could be exactly
what I dreamed for him.
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Uh...
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I didn't know
who he was, and I'm working
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doing sound and lighting,
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but he was so nervous.
He was so...
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Like, his hair
was just in front of his face,
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and he seemed so awkward.
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Long time ago,
when I was a little kid,
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my mom sat on a bed,
and she put this record on,
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and I heard my father's voice.
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He had on
his father's coat,
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and he started to play...
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It was his dad's song
about leaving him as a child.
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♪ I never asked
To be your mountain ♪
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- ♪ I never asked to fly ♪
-And he was weeping.
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♪ Remember when you came to me ♪
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♪ And told me of his lies ♪
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♪ You didn't understand
My love ♪
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♪ You don't know why I try ♪
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♪ And the rain
Was falling on that day ♪
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♪ And that's the reason why ♪
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♪ Oh ♪
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♪ Sweet ♪
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♪ Sweet ♪
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♪ Sweet lover ♪
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It did become
Jeff's concert.
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I was like,
"This can't be real."
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He told me he walked away
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with no less
than 60 business cards
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in his pockets.
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My friend,
he said he heard
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Tim Buckley's haunted voice.
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It's not his voice,
and it's not my voice.
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It's the voice
that's been passed down
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through every man in the family.
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He came out,
and sat next to me, and said,
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"What did you think?"
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I was thinking, "My opinion here
does not matter,"
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but that was really stunning,
like, just so beautiful.
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He was asking
if he could walk me
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to the subway,
and gets on the train with me,
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and took it all the way
into Manhattan,
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and we're talking and talking.
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And we stayed on that train,
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and we went all the way up
to the last stop.
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Besides reading
and movies,
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what I really like
is night prowling,
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00:20:48,029 --> 00:20:49,857
finding out-of-the-way places
where the misfits go.
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You're making me laugh so much.
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♪ Yeah, mean ♪
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Then we got
in the downtown,
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and we went all the way
to Coney Island and back.
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♪ I will take to any task ♪
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♪ I'll do anything you ask ♪
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♪ If you really love me still ♪
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He was so interested
in what I did,
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which really surprised me
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'cause I was doing
experimental theater.
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00:21:27,373 --> 00:21:30,027
It was really less
about money and fame,
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and more about
pushing the boundaries.
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Nobody I knew my own age
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was really interested
in any of that,
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but he was someone who drank up
the world like a sponge.
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♪ You make me feel so young ♪
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Thank you.
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00:21:52,833 --> 00:21:55,836
♪ You make me feel like
Spring has sprung ♪
353
00:21:56,402 --> 00:21:58,360
I was in a play
with Rebecca.
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00:21:58,534 --> 00:21:59,840
I was in high school.
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00:22:00,014 --> 00:22:02,451
And Jeff just felt
very electric to me.
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00:22:03,931 --> 00:22:05,585
♪ The moment that you speak ♪
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00:22:06,020 --> 00:22:07,804
Jeff had
a real lust for life.
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00:22:07,978 --> 00:22:09,937
♪ Go play hide and seek ♪
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00:22:10,111 --> 00:22:11,634
The East Village
at that time
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00:22:11,808 --> 00:22:13,593
was such a collection
of every eccentric
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00:22:13,767 --> 00:22:15,508
that did not fit in
anywhere else.
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00:22:17,945 --> 00:22:20,034
♪ You and I ♪
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And he saw
so many people
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00:22:21,601 --> 00:22:23,211
breaking down the status quo.
365
00:22:24,299 --> 00:22:28,477
Artists were being banned.
The NEA was being censored.
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00:22:29,043 --> 00:22:31,219
New York was the place
for this amazing stuff,
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00:22:31,393 --> 00:22:33,352
stuff I can't even describe
to you.
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00:22:35,658 --> 00:22:37,094
Sometimes he would
just disappear,
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00:22:37,268 --> 00:22:38,835
and I'd get a call
from a friend later going,
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00:22:39,009 --> 00:22:41,055
"Jeff showed up
at my house today."
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00:22:41,229 --> 00:22:43,274
Every moment was so spontaneous.
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He would make
very elaborate outgoing messages
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like old-time radio shows.
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[over tape] And now,
the continuing adventures
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00:22:54,721 --> 00:22:57,071
of Spinach the Cat.
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00:22:57,245 --> 00:22:59,987
His most famous
being Spinach the Cat.
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00:23:00,161 --> 00:23:02,163
...house cat falls on the edge.
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00:23:02,337 --> 00:23:04,905
And now, your host,
Quentin Snobbery!
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Jeff didn't have a job,
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00:23:06,646 --> 00:23:08,299
so he had a lot of time
on his hands.
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00:23:08,474 --> 00:23:11,520
Jeff used to look specifically
for Michael Bolton tapes,
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00:23:11,694 --> 00:23:13,043
so he could put
the piece of tape
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00:23:13,217 --> 00:23:16,264
over the top,
and record over it.
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00:23:16,438 --> 00:23:19,223
He would line up tape recorders
'cause there was no samplers,
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00:23:19,398 --> 00:23:21,182
there was no digital computer, nothing.
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00:23:21,356 --> 00:23:24,359
He basically created
this little studio
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00:23:24,533 --> 00:23:26,535
all for this...
...outgoing message.
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00:23:26,709 --> 00:23:28,189
Pressing this sound effect
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00:23:28,363 --> 00:23:29,930
for when the crowd cheers.
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00:23:30,104 --> 00:23:32,019
And this sound effect
when the cat meows.
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It was an hour long.
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And so people...
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00:23:37,416 --> 00:23:40,854
...they had to listen
to this hour-long soap opera.
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00:23:42,899 --> 00:23:44,161
He asked me,
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00:23:44,466 --> 00:23:45,511
"Do you think
this part is too much?"
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00:23:46,381 --> 00:23:50,298
I thought, "The whole thing
is too much."
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00:23:50,472 --> 00:23:52,648
Join us next time
for the continuing adventures
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00:23:52,822 --> 00:23:55,303
of Spinach the Cat.
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00:23:57,827 --> 00:24:00,656
I love you. I love...
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00:24:00,830 --> 00:24:03,354
I think
Jeff had this desire
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00:24:03,529 --> 00:24:07,446
to be liked and loved,
and to connect with people.
402
00:24:15,454 --> 00:24:17,760
Jeff started calling me
Butterfly.
403
00:24:20,197 --> 00:24:24,854
I think he saw me at that point
of coming out of a cocoon.
404
00:24:31,078 --> 00:24:33,907
We were these two
sensitive young souls
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00:24:34,081 --> 00:24:37,258
searching for where you fit in,
and feel empowered and loved,
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00:24:37,432 --> 00:24:39,260
and found each other.
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00:24:39,434 --> 00:24:41,958
♪ I once was open ♪
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00:24:42,132 --> 00:24:45,571
♪ And one
With a traveling heart ♪
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00:24:45,745 --> 00:24:49,313
But I called him...
...the Scratchy Fish,
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00:24:49,488 --> 00:24:53,970
'cause he was always
not shaving, very bristly.
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00:24:54,144 --> 00:24:57,147
And he started
making these stories,
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00:24:57,321 --> 00:24:58,888
almost like children's stories.
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00:24:59,062 --> 00:25:02,283
This is Scratchy Fishy,
this is their home,
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00:25:02,457 --> 00:25:05,852
and this is Butterfly,
and they're getting married.
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00:25:06,548 --> 00:25:09,856
The story he wove
about a butterfly and a fish
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00:25:10,030 --> 00:25:12,902
was that
they could never be together.
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00:25:13,903 --> 00:25:16,602
♪ Just like the ocean ♪
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00:25:16,776 --> 00:25:22,433
♪ Always in love
With the moon ♪
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00:25:23,609 --> 00:25:28,178
♪ It's overflowing now ♪
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00:25:28,352 --> 00:25:31,617
♪ Inside you ♪
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00:25:31,791 --> 00:25:33,749
You could see in his eyes
that he would sometimes go
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00:25:33,923 --> 00:25:37,492
to this place that I think
was very inaccessible
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00:25:37,666 --> 00:25:41,409
to anyone but himself.
He just would check out.
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00:25:43,280 --> 00:25:47,807
♪ In the half-light ♪
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00:25:47,981 --> 00:25:54,814
♪ You saw me as I am ♪
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00:26:01,385 --> 00:26:04,519
♪ The stars have lost
Their glitter ♪
427
00:26:05,346 --> 00:26:08,218
♪ The winds have grown colder ♪
428
00:26:08,392 --> 00:26:12,048
I wanted to be a... you know,
a chanteuse.
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00:26:12,701 --> 00:26:15,704
♪ Don't know what happened ♪
430
00:26:15,878 --> 00:26:22,319
♪ It's all a crazy game ♪
431
00:26:22,493 --> 00:26:24,974
Secretly, I think
I wanted to be Nina Simone.
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00:26:25,148 --> 00:26:29,675
♪ I love all things about you ♪
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00:26:30,240 --> 00:26:32,982
Although she would advise
against this strongly, I'm sure.
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00:26:33,156 --> 00:26:34,984
- ♪ Your heart ♪
- ♪ Your heart ♪
435
00:26:35,158 --> 00:26:39,075
Sometimes, I think I wanted
to be Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan.
436
00:26:44,124 --> 00:26:45,212
He was my Elvis.
437
00:26:45,386 --> 00:26:46,474
♪ Oh ♪
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00:27:11,064 --> 00:27:14,981
To be a scrappy, young
White kid from Orange County,
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00:27:15,155 --> 00:27:18,985
covering Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan
or Nina Simone,
440
00:27:19,159 --> 00:27:20,595
you just have to give it up.
441
00:27:20,769 --> 00:27:22,553
He must've been
working his ass off.
442
00:27:25,469 --> 00:27:27,036
There was
a tiny little club
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00:27:27,210 --> 00:27:29,909
in the East Village
called Sin-e.
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00:27:31,040 --> 00:27:32,781
You could probably fit in
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00:27:32,955 --> 00:27:35,871
maybe 30 or 40 people
at the most,
446
00:27:36,045 --> 00:27:37,917
and it would be
super, super crowded.
447
00:27:38,091 --> 00:27:44,010
And Jeff was washing dishes,
he was serving people coffee,
448
00:27:44,184 --> 00:27:48,405
and then every now and then
he would just get up and play.
449
00:27:48,579 --> 00:27:50,320
Check. That's cool.
450
00:27:50,494 --> 00:27:53,149
I'm a ridiculous person.
451
00:27:53,323 --> 00:27:55,282
And you're lucky
you've paid no money to see me.
452
00:27:57,588 --> 00:28:00,548
U2 member: It was
an Irish-run coffee shop.
453
00:28:00,722 --> 00:28:03,943
A great little place
to see somebody in the raw.
454
00:28:06,249 --> 00:28:08,425
This is a perfect place
for music lovers.
455
00:28:08,599 --> 00:28:10,471
It's not like playing
at a rock club.
456
00:28:10,645 --> 00:28:13,517
It's not like playing at a ball.
This is good place to get real.
457
00:28:13,692 --> 00:28:14,954
Turn it up.
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00:28:15,128 --> 00:28:17,217
It was so homey
in here.
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00:28:17,391 --> 00:28:20,350
It just smelled
of, like, espresso.
460
00:28:20,524 --> 00:28:22,918
He'd be in the middle
of some, like, ballad
461
00:28:23,092 --> 00:28:25,704
and you just hear that...
462
00:28:25,878 --> 00:28:29,620
♪ And we sat on our own star ♪
463
00:28:29,795 --> 00:28:31,710
♪ And dreamed of the way
that I was...♪
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00:28:31,884 --> 00:28:34,016
The Sin-e community
became a place
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00:28:34,190 --> 00:28:35,801
of such encouragement for him.
466
00:28:35,975 --> 00:28:37,237
♪ Oh, baby, baby ♪
467
00:28:37,411 --> 00:28:39,239
It really became a home
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00:28:39,413 --> 00:28:40,762
where he could experiment.
469
00:28:41,676 --> 00:28:44,070
♪ It's a fabulous time
For a Guinness ♪
470
00:28:44,244 --> 00:28:47,638
♪ You know the brown liquor ♪
471
00:28:58,475 --> 00:29:01,087
The Buttocks
of Steel tour, Jeff Buckley.
472
00:29:01,261 --> 00:29:03,829
In the beginning,
there were just a few people.
473
00:29:04,003 --> 00:29:06,745
Then all of a sudden,
it was, like, packed.
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00:29:06,919 --> 00:29:08,747
[on microphone] I'll play
the seat-finding song.
475
00:29:08,921 --> 00:29:11,097
Crowds, you know,
spilling out into the street.
476
00:29:13,099 --> 00:29:14,143
Everybody, stop.
477
00:29:15,710 --> 00:29:16,972
He was really
an entertainer there
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00:29:17,146 --> 00:29:18,844
as much as a musician.
479
00:29:19,018 --> 00:29:20,367
By the way,
all these songs are
480
00:29:20,541 --> 00:29:22,456
for the lovers in the audience.
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00:29:22,630 --> 00:29:25,459
He mostly did covers.
482
00:29:26,025 --> 00:29:27,940
And then
he started introducing
483
00:29:28,114 --> 00:29:29,593
some of the original material.
484
00:29:31,073 --> 00:29:33,336
It went from laughing
to jaw-dropping,
you know?
485
00:29:34,511 --> 00:29:35,991
This is a song
about a dream.
486
00:29:49,613 --> 00:29:54,836
♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh ♪
487
00:29:55,010 --> 00:29:59,841
♪ Whoo ♪
488
00:30:02,017 --> 00:30:06,543
♪ Oh, Oh ♪
489
00:30:06,717 --> 00:30:10,286
♪ Whoo-ooh ♪
490
00:30:19,818 --> 00:30:23,647
♪ Oh, oh ♪
491
00:30:26,781 --> 00:30:28,914
♪ Ooh... ♪
492
00:30:32,352 --> 00:30:37,400
♪ Ooh, ooh ♪
493
00:30:39,141 --> 00:30:41,883
That was the first time I ever
saw Jeff Buckley at Sin-e.
494
00:30:42,449 --> 00:30:46,148
♪ When I'm lying in my bed
The blanket is warm ♪
495
00:30:46,409 --> 00:30:50,283
♪ This body will never be safe
From harm ♪
496
00:30:50,457 --> 00:30:54,113
♪ I still feel your hair
Black ribbons of coal ♪
497
00:30:54,635 --> 00:31:01,511
♪ Touch my skin
To keep me whole ♪
498
00:31:04,775 --> 00:31:07,343
I mean, you know,
a pin could drop.
499
00:31:08,605 --> 00:31:10,694
I wasn't thinking about
being a music executive.
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00:31:10,869 --> 00:31:12,261
I was just a fan.
501
00:31:13,175 --> 00:31:16,091
♪ Oh, if only
You'd come back to me ♪
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00:31:17,527 --> 00:31:20,748
♪ If you laid at my side ♪
503
00:31:21,357 --> 00:31:24,534
♪ Wouldn't need no mojo pin ♪
504
00:31:25,100 --> 00:31:30,062
♪ To keep me satisfied ♪
505
00:31:30,236 --> 00:31:31,977
I was there
with Columbia.
506
00:31:33,369 --> 00:31:35,371
I think
we were all sort of stopped
507
00:31:35,545 --> 00:31:36,938
in our tracks that night.
508
00:31:48,645 --> 00:31:51,039
♪ Oh, precious, precious
Silver and gold ♪
509
00:31:51,213 --> 00:31:53,128
The whole
record company gauntlet
510
00:31:53,302 --> 00:31:55,174
started infesting
my gigs.
511
00:31:55,348 --> 00:31:57,350
They were all there,
the people from Elektra,
512
00:31:57,524 --> 00:31:59,091
Arista, Sony.
513
00:31:59,265 --> 00:32:01,963
♪ And pray to love ♪
514
00:32:03,051 --> 00:32:04,531
[on microphone] Hmm!
515
00:32:04,705 --> 00:32:05,967
It was a bit of a cotillion.
516
00:32:07,142 --> 00:32:08,491
But that's the way it goes.
517
00:32:08,665 --> 00:32:11,625
♪ Ooh, ooh ♪
518
00:32:11,799 --> 00:32:13,932
We'd all heard
so many nightmares
519
00:32:14,106 --> 00:32:17,892
about large labels,
and lack of creative expression,
520
00:32:18,066 --> 00:32:19,589
but I think he went into it
521
00:32:19,763 --> 00:32:20,764
feeling like
he'd been reassured
522
00:32:20,939 --> 00:32:22,679
that he was gonna get that.
523
00:32:22,853 --> 00:32:26,205
♪ Well, it's you
I've waited my life to see ♪
524
00:32:26,379 --> 00:32:29,295
♪ It's you I've searched
So hard... ♪
525
00:32:29,469 --> 00:32:31,079
I knew that
they were just sitting there
526
00:32:31,253 --> 00:32:33,081
with bated breath,
waiting for the new Tim Buckley
527
00:32:33,255 --> 00:32:35,605
to come up and pick up
where his father left off.
528
00:32:35,779 --> 00:32:39,087
I hated it. I couldn't stand it.
Fucking bullshit.
529
00:32:40,132 --> 00:32:42,308
What do you think
you inherited from your father?
530
00:32:42,482 --> 00:32:43,831
People who remember my father.
531
00:32:46,877 --> 00:32:47,748
Next question.
532
00:32:50,229 --> 00:32:52,144
I went around and sampled
record company people
533
00:32:52,318 --> 00:32:54,146
to find where I fit in.
534
00:32:54,320 --> 00:32:56,322
Jeff had
a little bit of fear
535
00:32:56,496 --> 00:32:57,671
about the fact
that he didn't have
536
00:32:57,845 --> 00:32:59,107
more original material.
537
00:32:59,281 --> 00:33:00,761
I would never tell him
what to do,
538
00:33:00,935 --> 00:33:02,589
but I was like, "Go small."
539
00:33:03,590 --> 00:33:05,766
I went to Sony.
Well, Columbia.
540
00:33:06,767 --> 00:33:08,160
When you walk in,
541
00:33:08,334 --> 00:33:09,770
the first thing you see
is Bob Dylan,
542
00:33:10,205 --> 00:33:13,339
on the wall, looking beautiful.
A foot away is Miles.
543
00:33:14,209 --> 00:33:16,951
Foot away is Monk,
Duke Ellington,
544
00:33:17,125 --> 00:33:19,214
Chambers Brothers, Mahalia.
545
00:33:19,388 --> 00:33:20,911
♪ Sometimes I feel ♪
546
00:33:21,086 --> 00:33:23,305
It was purely emotional,
I was like "Yeah, this is...
547
00:33:23,479 --> 00:33:25,829
I wanna be... here."
548
00:33:28,528 --> 00:33:31,139
Columbia has
such a storied legacy
549
00:33:31,313 --> 00:33:35,143
of Leonard Cohen and Bob Dylan
and Bruce Springsteen.
550
00:33:35,317 --> 00:33:38,668
What we all felt
sitting in that room was that
551
00:33:38,842 --> 00:33:41,062
he would one day
be in that pantheon.
552
00:33:44,892 --> 00:33:46,807
I said, "Gentlemen,
you won't be able to dictate
553
00:33:46,981 --> 00:33:48,374
anything to me,
554
00:33:48,939 --> 00:33:50,289
I'm just gonna make something
I've never heard before."
555
00:33:50,463 --> 00:33:51,594
And the people
that I settled with
556
00:33:51,768 --> 00:33:53,248
were pretty fine with that idea.
557
00:33:54,206 --> 00:33:55,511
He was told that
it was, like,
558
00:33:55,685 --> 00:33:57,078
one of the biggest deals
559
00:33:57,252 --> 00:33:59,907
an unknown person
had ever gotten.
560
00:34:01,169 --> 00:34:03,606
He brought home
the contract.
It was, like, 40 pages long.
561
00:34:03,780 --> 00:34:05,521
I'd never seen
anything like it.
562
00:34:08,089 --> 00:34:10,004
It should have been just joy,
563
00:34:10,570 --> 00:34:12,485
but I think
suddenly things changed.
564
00:34:18,012 --> 00:34:19,579
I would come home from work,
565
00:34:19,753 --> 00:34:21,581
and I'd come up
the six flights of stairs,
566
00:34:21,755 --> 00:34:23,452
and I would get to the door,
and put my key in the door,
567
00:34:23,626 --> 00:34:25,150
and I'd hear him stop.
568
00:34:26,281 --> 00:34:28,153
Before the record contract,
569
00:34:28,327 --> 00:34:30,677
he would sing and play for me
all the time.
570
00:34:31,721 --> 00:34:35,203
I said to him,
"Do you need a place to work?"
571
00:34:35,377 --> 00:34:37,858
The pressure to write songs
and not be interrupted
572
00:34:38,032 --> 00:34:39,468
was so intense.
573
00:34:41,470 --> 00:34:42,863
I'm going to write...
574
00:34:44,473 --> 00:34:47,868
a hundred songs in five weeks.
575
00:34:50,044 --> 00:34:52,090
Means 20 songs a week.
576
00:34:53,743 --> 00:34:55,397
Ugh...
577
00:34:55,571 --> 00:34:57,660
He struggled
with the lyrics.
578
00:34:57,834 --> 00:35:01,011
I'm a horrible critic.
I'm my own worst critic.
579
00:35:01,577 --> 00:35:04,276
He was obsessed
with Morrissey and Dylan.
580
00:35:04,841 --> 00:35:07,409
So, he had a very high standard.
581
00:35:07,931 --> 00:35:11,152
He didn't wanna be known
as the guy who only does covers.
582
00:35:12,849 --> 00:35:14,242
My hope had been that
583
00:35:14,416 --> 00:35:15,722
we would work
on the relationship
584
00:35:15,896 --> 00:35:17,550
and live together,
585
00:35:17,724 --> 00:35:20,205
but he would find another space
where he could get
586
00:35:20,379 --> 00:35:22,946
this record contract fulfilled.
587
00:35:23,686 --> 00:35:25,993
That was naive
to hope...
588
00:35:26,167 --> 00:35:28,648
...'cause he moved out
completely.
589
00:35:37,831 --> 00:35:39,920
People are, like, saying,
"Look, I'll give you
all this money,
590
00:35:40,094 --> 00:35:42,270
look, I'll be your manager,
look, I'll be your agent."
591
00:35:42,444 --> 00:35:43,924
"Look, I got this place
I want you to play.
Blah, blah, blah."
592
00:35:44,881 --> 00:35:46,318
And I just wanna make
something special,
593
00:35:46,492 --> 00:35:48,015
not even care
about anything else,
594
00:35:48,189 --> 00:35:51,105
money, or prestige,
or a tour, or nothing.
595
00:35:51,975 --> 00:35:55,327
♪ There's the moon
Asking to stay ♪
596
00:36:01,637 --> 00:36:03,204
Try it again.
597
00:36:05,728 --> 00:36:09,558
♪ There's the moon
Asking to stay ♪
598
00:36:10,124 --> 00:36:13,040
♪ Long enough
For the clouds to fly... ♪
599
00:36:13,214 --> 00:36:15,477
Coming up with
a record's worth of material
600
00:36:15,651 --> 00:36:18,437
with musicians and a producer
and engineers waiting,
601
00:36:18,611 --> 00:36:20,265
and everybody
is dependent on you,
602
00:36:20,961 --> 00:36:23,268
you know, it's like, tick-tock,
start making magic.
603
00:36:23,442 --> 00:36:27,010
Let's try it again.
Come into my world.
604
00:36:27,185 --> 00:36:29,491
My journals are the lyrics
for the albums.
605
00:36:31,014 --> 00:36:32,842
The songs just come
out of poems,
606
00:36:33,016 --> 00:36:34,844
and sometimes
poems come out of dreams.
607
00:36:35,018 --> 00:36:39,371
♪ And she weeps on my arm ♪
608
00:36:39,545 --> 00:36:45,855
♪ Walking to the bright lights
In sorrow ♪
609
00:36:46,508 --> 00:36:52,253
♪ Oh, drink a bit of wine
We both might go tomorrow ♪
610
00:36:52,427 --> 00:36:54,342
This is a song
called "Grace."
611
00:36:54,516 --> 00:36:55,952
It's basically a death prayer.
612
00:36:58,216 --> 00:36:59,913
♪ Ooh ♪
613
00:37:00,087 --> 00:37:01,654
I always describe it as,
you know,
614
00:37:01,828 --> 00:37:04,744
not fearing anything,
anyone, any man, any woman,
615
00:37:04,918 --> 00:37:06,398
any war, any gun,
616
00:37:07,094 --> 00:37:10,880
any sling or arrow aimed
at your heart by other people.
617
00:37:11,054 --> 00:37:12,186
♪ Ooh ♪
618
00:37:12,360 --> 00:37:15,842
♪ It reminds me of the pain ♪
619
00:37:24,372 --> 00:37:26,113
Because there is
somebody finally
620
00:37:26,287 --> 00:37:27,593
who loves you for real.
621
00:37:30,944 --> 00:37:33,947
You can achieve
a real state of grace
622
00:37:34,121 --> 00:37:35,688
through somebody else's
love in you.
623
00:37:46,960 --> 00:37:49,354
Jeff would say, "Oh, we should
bring strings in on this song."
624
00:37:51,269 --> 00:37:54,533
We had this idea to write
interesting backgrounds
625
00:37:54,707 --> 00:37:58,058
that fit the voice,
actual lines,
626
00:37:58,232 --> 00:37:59,625
you know, counter lines.
627
00:38:00,408 --> 00:38:02,584
Karl came
from the jazz world.
628
00:38:02,758 --> 00:38:04,325
He was more appealing to Jeff
629
00:38:04,499 --> 00:38:06,762
than somebody who does
pop string arrangements.
630
00:38:06,936 --> 00:38:08,938
Britney Spears would call,
and I said,
631
00:38:09,112 --> 00:38:11,027
"No, that's... you're calling
the wrong person."
632
00:38:13,029 --> 00:38:17,295
Jeff listened to Bill Evans.
He listened to Shostakovich.
633
00:38:19,079 --> 00:38:21,168
Have you heard
of any pop singers
634
00:38:21,342 --> 00:38:24,519
even knowing
who Shostakovich is?
635
00:38:24,693 --> 00:38:27,914
- ♪ [music resumes] ♪
- ♪ And the rain is falling ♪
636
00:38:28,088 --> 00:38:30,612
♪ And I believe ♪
637
00:38:30,786 --> 00:38:32,222
It was the same way
638
00:38:32,440 --> 00:38:33,833
that Led Zeppelin
used orchestrations.
639
00:38:34,007 --> 00:38:35,574
Any orchestra leader
would have loved
640
00:38:35,748 --> 00:38:37,402
to have had their day with Jeff,
641
00:38:37,576 --> 00:38:39,882
to be able
to just go to the moon.
642
00:38:41,928 --> 00:38:46,019
People who sing high lose power.
Jeff actually gains power.
643
00:38:46,585 --> 00:38:48,891
His range
was like four octaves.
644
00:38:49,544 --> 00:38:51,285
You think
you're coming to a peak,
645
00:38:51,459 --> 00:38:52,982
and then he goes
one step further
646
00:38:53,156 --> 00:38:54,593
and then he goes
another step further.
647
00:38:54,767 --> 00:38:58,205
♪ Oh! ♪
648
00:38:58,379 --> 00:39:01,948
♪ Oh! ♪
649
00:39:02,122 --> 00:39:07,388
♪ Oh! ♪
650
00:39:07,649 --> 00:39:10,260
♪ Yeah, whoo ♪
651
00:39:10,435 --> 00:39:13,481
"Grace" is one of those songs
that would inspire me
to pick up the guitar and play,
652
00:39:13,655 --> 00:39:15,309
and then I'd start to
653
00:39:15,483 --> 00:39:18,051
kind of... find something
that made me feel like that,
654
00:39:18,225 --> 00:39:20,314
and fail miserably at it,
put the guitar back.
655
00:39:20,488 --> 00:39:23,404
♪ Oh, oh! ♪
656
00:39:31,456 --> 00:39:34,589
Jeff said, "I want you
to shoot my album cover."
657
00:39:35,547 --> 00:39:40,116
I had all the contact sheets,
and Jeff just went... boing,
658
00:39:40,290 --> 00:39:41,901
"That's it. That's the cover."
659
00:39:42,510 --> 00:39:43,772
It's completely iconic.
660
00:39:43,946 --> 00:39:45,992
He already looks like
he's Sinatra.
661
00:39:46,906 --> 00:39:49,125
The folks
at the company didn't like
662
00:39:49,299 --> 00:39:50,692
the glittery gold jacket.
663
00:39:50,866 --> 00:39:53,086
"Yeah, that's a little
too effeminate."
664
00:39:53,260 --> 00:39:54,740
And Jeff's like,
665
00:39:55,044 --> 00:39:56,698
"You gave me creative control.
I choose that."
666
00:39:57,264 --> 00:40:00,398
♪ And I feel them
Drown my name ♪
667
00:40:00,572 --> 00:40:04,010
♪ Was so easy to know ♪
668
00:40:04,184 --> 00:40:07,840
♪ And forget with this kiss ♪
669
00:40:08,014 --> 00:40:11,409
♪ Well, I'm not afraid to go ♪
670
00:40:11,583 --> 00:40:18,416
♪ But it goes so slow ♪
671
00:40:25,858 --> 00:40:28,382
Seven originals, three covers.
672
00:40:28,556 --> 00:40:31,733
♪ Wait in the fire ♪
673
00:40:31,907 --> 00:40:34,257
♪ Wait in the fire ♪
674
00:40:34,432 --> 00:40:37,478
♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪
675
00:40:37,652 --> 00:40:39,959
He made a record that
no one else could ever have
676
00:40:40,133 --> 00:40:43,876
come close to making
as a first record, it's uncanny.
677
00:40:44,050 --> 00:40:47,053
Now, it's like
a legendary album.
678
00:40:47,227 --> 00:40:49,751
People know me better for that
than for my own music.
679
00:40:51,492 --> 00:40:56,018
♪ Oh, yeah, wait in the fire ♪
680
00:41:02,372 --> 00:41:04,897
- That was all right.
-It was great.
681
00:41:08,117 --> 00:41:09,292
I remember...
682
00:41:10,293 --> 00:41:12,774
putting it in the CD player
in my car...
683
00:41:17,692 --> 00:41:19,215
and I was...
684
00:41:20,608 --> 00:41:25,395
overwhelmed with the mastery,
and the musicianship...
685
00:41:26,266 --> 00:41:27,615
and the poetry.
686
00:41:29,617 --> 00:41:30,488
And...
687
00:41:32,011 --> 00:41:33,926
and the vocal performances...
688
00:41:35,405 --> 00:41:37,146
were beyond anything
689
00:41:37,320 --> 00:41:40,541
I had imagined
he was capable of.
690
00:41:42,543 --> 00:41:45,764
♪ Ooh ♪
691
00:41:56,209 --> 00:41:59,517
Boy!
France, Australia, UK, huge.
692
00:41:59,691 --> 00:42:02,563
"Grace" was huge!
It was a monster hit.
693
00:42:03,390 --> 00:42:05,348
US, moderate.
694
00:42:09,701 --> 00:42:11,485
♪ Oh ♪
695
00:42:11,659 --> 00:42:13,443
As a child,
I lived in Los Angeles.
696
00:42:14,053 --> 00:42:16,272
I mean,
you see people getting signed,
697
00:42:16,446 --> 00:42:18,797
dreams totally inflated falsely.
698
00:42:19,711 --> 00:42:22,104
But I really admire artists
allowed to fail,
699
00:42:22,278 --> 00:42:23,453
are allowed to be human,
700
00:42:23,628 --> 00:42:25,455
allowed to make
the most glorious dances
701
00:42:25,630 --> 00:42:28,197
they could ever imagine,
and totally fall,
702
00:42:28,371 --> 00:42:30,286
and get back up
'cause it's all human.
703
00:42:30,460 --> 00:42:33,202
But if you're like this side of,
you know, Danny Partridge,
704
00:42:33,376 --> 00:42:35,204
it's just, like,
totally impossible.
705
00:42:37,206 --> 00:42:39,165
It's the era of grunge.
706
00:42:39,339 --> 00:42:40,906
And Jeff was
a real counterweight to that.
707
00:42:41,080 --> 00:42:44,126
He was part of
this downtown New York scene.
708
00:42:47,695 --> 00:42:50,219
Back then
Jeff defied genres.
709
00:42:50,393 --> 00:42:52,482
Jeff tested boundaries.
710
00:42:53,788 --> 00:42:56,574
Jeff challenged
traditional male, female roles.
711
00:42:57,575 --> 00:42:59,751
So, his music
was not easy to fit
712
00:42:59,925 --> 00:43:03,711
into the dozen radio categories.
713
00:43:08,847 --> 00:43:11,632
And yet
Jeff was also influenced
714
00:43:11,806 --> 00:43:14,330
by some of the artists
that came out
715
00:43:14,504 --> 00:43:17,029
in the late '80s and early '90s
from Seattle.
716
00:43:18,900 --> 00:43:21,163
Soundgarden was playing
in London,
717
00:43:21,773 --> 00:43:24,906
and I don't think
I quite realized
718
00:43:25,080 --> 00:43:28,170
what a huge Soundgarden fan
Jeff was.
719
00:43:28,867 --> 00:43:31,783
♪ You've been taken ♪
720
00:43:32,914 --> 00:43:34,916
Oh, my goodness,
this is where he could be
721
00:43:35,090 --> 00:43:38,180
like a little, you know,
annoying brother, like,
722
00:43:38,354 --> 00:43:41,662
"You have to take me.
I'm coming with you."
723
00:43:43,882 --> 00:43:46,536
He just magically showed up
one day,
724
00:43:46,711 --> 00:43:48,234
and it was on.
725
00:43:49,017 --> 00:43:51,541
It was a beautiful,
beautiful friendship
726
00:43:51,716 --> 00:43:53,413
between he and Chris.
727
00:43:53,848 --> 00:43:56,416
There was a sense of mischief
with this...
728
00:43:57,635 --> 00:44:00,725
almost soulmate understanding.
729
00:44:01,769 --> 00:44:03,641
Chris Cornell
does it really well.
730
00:44:03,815 --> 00:44:06,165
He's, like, the one
of the few people I've met
731
00:44:06,339 --> 00:44:09,777
that makes his life work,
his ordinary life,
732
00:44:09,951 --> 00:44:12,084
'cause without ordinary life,
there's no art.
733
00:44:15,087 --> 00:44:17,437
How would you like
your fans to think of you?
734
00:44:18,525 --> 00:44:20,832
Just as a... Really as a guy
735
00:44:21,006 --> 00:44:23,965
that's just, like,
a really good storyteller.
736
00:44:24,139 --> 00:44:26,664
Just somebody who does
a job that they enjoy.
737
00:44:27,403 --> 00:44:29,188
Of course,
it was incredible
738
00:44:29,362 --> 00:44:33,235
that so many people
reacted to his music,
739
00:44:34,149 --> 00:44:36,543
but the fame
that went along with that
740
00:44:36,717 --> 00:44:38,893
was not the fun part.
741
00:44:40,895 --> 00:44:43,724
Even when he acted confident,
it was kind of an act.
742
00:44:43,898 --> 00:44:47,075
It was him channeling
that bravely as a character,
743
00:44:47,249 --> 00:44:49,164
but I still think
that really insecure person
744
00:44:49,338 --> 00:44:51,297
was always there.
745
00:44:51,732 --> 00:44:53,429
Well,
everybody is sensitive,
but sometimes,
746
00:44:53,603 --> 00:44:55,388
men don't wanna recognize it.
747
00:44:56,606 --> 00:44:58,521
I don't even want people
to really think of me as a face,
748
00:44:58,696 --> 00:45:01,350
or a name, or a body,
or anything, just the music,
749
00:45:01,873 --> 00:45:02,917
'cause when I'm dead...
750
00:45:04,136 --> 00:45:05,877
that's the only thing
that'll be around.
751
00:45:13,972 --> 00:45:16,191
How he was being
examined under a microscope
752
00:45:16,365 --> 00:45:17,802
was so intense,
753
00:45:18,324 --> 00:45:22,545
'cause that quality he had
to disappear in the moment...
754
00:45:23,633 --> 00:45:27,115
ultimately amounted
to not showing up
755
00:45:27,289 --> 00:45:28,551
where I was.
756
00:45:30,815 --> 00:45:35,428
One night, he didn't come home,
and this was Valentine's Day.
757
00:45:35,602 --> 00:45:37,256
By 03:00 or 04:00
in the morning,
758
00:45:37,430 --> 00:45:40,085
I was calling hospitals
around New York City.
759
00:45:40,738 --> 00:45:44,829
And then he just sauntered in.
He had been out with friends.
760
00:45:46,178 --> 00:45:49,181
♪ Maybe I'm too young ♪
761
00:45:55,970 --> 00:45:57,406
♪ But tonight... ♪
762
00:45:57,667 --> 00:45:59,278
Hi, Rebecca, it's nine o'clock
763
00:45:59,452 --> 00:46:01,410
and I fucking couldn't get
into your show,
764
00:46:01,584 --> 00:46:03,543
'cause I got there too close
to eight o'clock.
765
00:46:03,717 --> 00:46:06,764
I'm so disappointed.
I really wanna see you.
766
00:46:09,897 --> 00:46:13,205
♪ Too young to hold on ♪
767
00:46:14,249 --> 00:46:18,776
♪ And too old
To just break free and run ♪
768
00:46:20,908 --> 00:46:22,692
During
his record-release party,
769
00:46:22,867 --> 00:46:26,958
I had a backstage pass.
He'd handwritten my name on it.
770
00:46:27,785 --> 00:46:31,049
His manager was at the door,
and he went,
771
00:46:31,223 --> 00:46:33,312
"You can't go in now.
Sit over there."
772
00:46:34,313 --> 00:46:35,575
Two hours went by,
773
00:46:36,402 --> 00:46:37,838
I went to the door,
and I turned the handle,
774
00:46:38,012 --> 00:46:39,361
and I walked in...
775
00:46:39,535 --> 00:46:41,233
...and it was
a mostly empty room.
776
00:46:41,407 --> 00:46:43,844
♪ Gets carried away ♪
777
00:46:44,149 --> 00:46:46,804
They said Jeff left,
like, over an hour ago.
778
00:46:46,978 --> 00:46:49,067
He must have gone out
a back door.
779
00:46:50,111 --> 00:46:51,983
The next morning,
he was so apologetic,
780
00:46:52,157 --> 00:46:53,941
and really upset...
781
00:46:55,682 --> 00:46:57,684
but I felt resigned.
782
00:46:58,903 --> 00:47:01,862
I didn't wanna be an appendage,
I didn't wanna be in his world
783
00:47:02,036 --> 00:47:03,821
if he didn't really
want me there.
784
00:47:10,131 --> 00:47:14,657
♪ So, I'll wait for you
And I'll burn ♪
785
00:47:16,224 --> 00:47:19,793
♪ Will I ever see
Your sweet return? ♪
786
00:47:19,967 --> 00:47:22,187
The hard part about letting go
was like,
787
00:47:22,361 --> 00:47:25,494
"I hope
he will have good people,"
788
00:47:25,668 --> 00:47:28,193
because he didn't have
any self-protection.
789
00:47:28,367 --> 00:47:31,979
♪ It's never over ♪
790
00:47:32,240 --> 00:47:37,942
♪ She's the tear that hangs
Inside my soul forever ♪
791
00:47:41,597 --> 00:47:45,340
♪ Love, lover ♪
792
00:47:46,124 --> 00:47:47,603
♪ Lover ♪
793
00:47:47,777 --> 00:47:52,391
♪ Lover, lover, lover ♪
794
00:47:52,565 --> 00:47:56,221
♪ Love, love, love ♪
795
00:47:56,482 --> 00:48:01,487
♪ Lover ♪
796
00:48:01,661 --> 00:48:06,535
♪ You should've come over ♪
797
00:48:08,189 --> 00:48:15,022
♪ 'Cause it's not too late ♪
798
00:48:25,424 --> 00:48:27,687
When Rebecca and him split,
799
00:48:27,861 --> 00:48:31,038
he just kind of looked like
a different person for a while.
800
00:48:38,916 --> 00:48:41,396
There was a time
when I was in New York
801
00:48:41,570 --> 00:48:45,835
and we spent some time together,
and... we met at a bar.
802
00:48:46,010 --> 00:48:48,577
And this jazz band
is really loud,
803
00:48:48,751 --> 00:48:50,666
so it was impossible
for us to talk.
804
00:48:51,841 --> 00:48:56,063
We started
writing each other messages.
805
00:48:57,021 --> 00:48:59,937
For a lot of it, I think
he was trying to be seductive...
806
00:49:01,460 --> 00:49:03,201
but...
807
00:49:03,375 --> 00:49:04,811
...it was, like, really not
where I wanted to go.
808
00:49:09,337 --> 00:49:13,907
There was a very boundary-less
kind of liquid feeling to him.
809
00:49:14,734 --> 00:49:17,389
He felt very desperate
to self-medicate
810
00:49:17,563 --> 00:49:20,435
with, you know, making us
into a sexual relationship.
811
00:49:23,395 --> 00:49:25,310
I remember getting
kind of frustrated,
812
00:49:26,137 --> 00:49:29,314
and writing,
"You need love, not sex."
813
00:49:31,881 --> 00:49:33,709
Generally, I love
to rush in there,
814
00:49:33,883 --> 00:49:36,277
and try to fix a broken guy,
815
00:49:36,451 --> 00:49:42,153
but that liquid, watery quality
just felt very tidal-wavy.
816
00:49:45,547 --> 00:49:47,419
He was very hard
on himself.
817
00:49:47,593 --> 00:49:49,682
Like, sometimes
I got the sense that...
818
00:49:51,118 --> 00:49:54,774
he felt that there were
good and evil forces,
819
00:49:54,948 --> 00:49:56,689
you know, at play within him.
820
00:50:04,740 --> 00:50:07,482
Music, I don't know,
it'll save you.
821
00:50:07,656 --> 00:50:09,310
One, two, three!
822
00:50:12,139 --> 00:50:14,446
♪ Lover, you should've
Come over ♪
823
00:50:15,186 --> 00:50:17,753
♪ Lover, you should've
Come over, whoo-hoo! ♪
824
00:50:18,145 --> 00:50:21,235
♪ Lover, don't forget
To bring the Coors, whoo! ♪
825
00:50:21,714 --> 00:50:23,107
Matt Johnson on drums.
826
00:50:23,846 --> 00:50:25,848
The bass player, Mick Grøndahl.
827
00:50:26,023 --> 00:50:27,676
- I'm Mick Grøndahl.
- And I'm Jeff Buckley.
828
00:50:27,850 --> 00:50:29,983
And you're watching
120 Minutes on MTV.
829
00:50:31,245 --> 00:50:33,204
He asked me
to join the band too.
830
00:50:33,378 --> 00:50:35,554
Sometimes I think
Jeff wanted me,
831
00:50:35,728 --> 00:50:38,426
because I was a connection
to Rebecca,
832
00:50:38,600 --> 00:50:39,601
and those memories.
833
00:50:40,646 --> 00:50:42,822
I think that it was clear
that Michael didn't know
834
00:50:42,996 --> 00:50:44,737
how to play the guitar.
835
00:50:44,911 --> 00:50:47,348
Yeah, all right,
there were tube socks.
836
00:50:47,522 --> 00:50:48,915
They were tube socks.
837
00:50:49,089 --> 00:50:50,351
But it was
about personality.
838
00:50:50,525 --> 00:50:52,092
It was about people.
839
00:50:52,266 --> 00:50:53,615
I would have my amp
really quiet.
840
00:50:53,789 --> 00:50:55,182
Jeff would slowly
turn it back up,
841
00:50:55,356 --> 00:50:57,489
you know, and I'd get all tight.
842
00:50:57,663 --> 00:50:59,882
He always told me not to be
afraid of the mistakes.
843
00:51:00,057 --> 00:51:01,797
Don't use your brain
the way you were using it
844
00:51:01,971 --> 00:51:06,106
30 seconds ago. You know?
In fact, don't use it at all.
845
00:51:06,280 --> 00:51:07,542
Matt, in particular,
was just so good
846
00:51:07,716 --> 00:51:09,979
at following Jeff
wherever Jeff was going.
847
00:51:13,679 --> 00:51:16,421
That musical chemistry they had
is very hard to come by.
848
00:51:16,595 --> 00:51:17,944
My name is Jeff Buckley,
849
00:51:18,118 --> 00:51:19,859
this is my band,
and this is our tacky abode.
850
00:51:20,251 --> 00:51:22,166
On the outside, it looks like
a huge black phallus of death.
851
00:51:22,340 --> 00:51:24,907
It's a Velcro clock.
852
00:51:25,082 --> 00:51:26,605
He's like,
"Okay, I want you."
853
00:51:27,258 --> 00:51:28,911
Until I got sober,
854
00:51:29,521 --> 00:51:32,219
drugs and alcohol
had been a big part of my life,
855
00:51:32,393 --> 00:51:33,786
which we connected on,
856
00:51:33,960 --> 00:51:36,310
because of, you know,
his father's situation.
857
00:51:36,484 --> 00:51:37,877
So, it just fell out
of your pocket?
858
00:51:42,099 --> 00:51:43,970
It's a huge cliché
that, you know,
859
00:51:44,144 --> 00:51:45,972
bands are like families.
But they are.
860
00:51:46,146 --> 00:51:47,104
Whoo!
861
00:51:50,542 --> 00:51:53,501
♪ Thank you! ♪
862
00:51:56,896 --> 00:52:01,509
The infamous
American Legion Hall concert...
863
00:52:02,467 --> 00:52:06,427
was the first one
that Jeff was in town
864
00:52:06,601 --> 00:52:09,604
since he started the tour.
865
00:52:09,778 --> 00:52:11,824
All of the relatives,
the friends of the relatives,
866
00:52:12,041 --> 00:52:14,261
the relatives of the friends
of the relatives,
867
00:52:14,435 --> 00:52:15,871
all wanted to go to the concert.
868
00:52:17,873 --> 00:52:21,094
We filled
the last two rows.
869
00:52:21,268 --> 00:52:22,922
The Tasmanian devil was...
870
00:52:23,096 --> 00:52:25,838
The... the pack showed up.
871
00:52:26,012 --> 00:52:29,494
And there was no beer left,
there was nothing left.
872
00:52:29,668 --> 00:52:32,453
Everything was, like, wiped out
before the show.
873
00:52:33,150 --> 00:52:34,281
Let's just say that
874
00:52:34,455 --> 00:52:36,327
as soon
as there was an opportunity
875
00:52:36,501 --> 00:52:38,894
to become part
of the inner circle
876
00:52:39,068 --> 00:52:42,550
of a rockstar,
it was very attractive.
877
00:52:43,290 --> 00:52:47,642
The promoters came to me,
and said, "We have a situation."
878
00:52:47,816 --> 00:52:49,166
I go outside and I...
879
00:52:50,993 --> 00:52:52,647
...realize it's Jeff's mother...
880
00:52:52,821 --> 00:52:55,476
...sitting in a car with her...
one of her girlfriends,
881
00:52:56,173 --> 00:52:57,913
just... smoking pot.
882
00:52:58,087 --> 00:52:59,611
You know,
"Hi, Gene. What's up, hey?"
883
00:52:59,785 --> 00:53:02,483
"Well, Mary, listen,
you gotta, you know...
884
00:53:02,657 --> 00:53:04,964
you gotta curtail this.
You're gonna get arrested."
885
00:53:05,660 --> 00:53:07,793
And I go back inside
to tell Jeff
886
00:53:07,967 --> 00:53:09,577
that the show's
gonna be canceled
887
00:53:09,795 --> 00:53:10,926
'cause his mother was outside
in the parking lot,
888
00:53:11,100 --> 00:53:13,799
smoking pot.
889
00:53:13,973 --> 00:53:18,325
Hey! Are you there?
This is your big, sexy son.
890
00:53:18,499 --> 00:53:21,589
I think you should really not,
like, set yourself up like that
891
00:53:21,763 --> 00:53:25,071
when you're, like,
"Fucking light up a doob,
892
00:53:25,593 --> 00:53:27,160
light up a fucking joint."
893
00:53:27,334 --> 00:53:30,294
"What? We're in the parking lot.
It's like over there..."
894
00:53:30,468 --> 00:53:33,819
"It's California. What?"
"No, no, no, no, no."
895
00:53:41,000 --> 00:53:43,916
We ended up in Iowa City,
and opening up for us
896
00:53:44,090 --> 00:53:46,745
were The Dambuilders
and then the Grifters.
897
00:53:46,919 --> 00:53:49,878
My booking agent said,
"Tim Buckley's son, Jeff,
898
00:53:50,052 --> 00:53:53,055
who had taken New York by storm
899
00:53:53,230 --> 00:53:55,536
was going to be on this tour
as the headliner."
900
00:53:57,451 --> 00:54:00,193
Joan Wasser
was one of the heavyweights
901
00:54:00,367 --> 00:54:04,502
in the music world,
being a tough-ass cool female
902
00:54:04,676 --> 00:54:08,201
coming up in the '90s
through the music scene.
903
00:54:08,375 --> 00:54:10,159
♪ Control! ♪
904
00:54:13,598 --> 00:54:14,860
♪ Wake up... ♪
905
00:54:15,121 --> 00:54:16,165
Lots of power,
lots of shiny.
906
00:54:16,340 --> 00:54:17,906
You know, lots of shiny.
907
00:54:18,429 --> 00:54:23,390
When I saw him,
it was definitely a vibe.
908
00:54:23,564 --> 00:54:26,654
We were just sort of
checking each other out.
909
00:54:30,658 --> 00:54:36,055
♪ And I'll rise like an ember
In your name no... ♪
910
00:54:36,229 --> 00:54:39,580
Well, Jeff stood right
in front of me the entire show
911
00:54:39,754 --> 00:54:42,366
and watched me.
912
00:54:42,757 --> 00:54:47,066
♪ I know everybody here
Wants you ♪
913
00:54:47,893 --> 00:54:51,592
He was rocking a, like,
I'm-worshipping-a-goddess vibe.
914
00:54:51,766 --> 00:54:56,075
♪ Everybody here thinks
They need you ♪
915
00:54:56,249 --> 00:55:00,166
Not subtle. Not subtle.
916
00:55:00,340 --> 00:55:02,821
And then hearing him,
917
00:55:02,995 --> 00:55:06,999
the thing that I thought of was,
"That's Nina Simone."
918
00:55:07,173 --> 00:55:12,004
♪ I lost myself ♪
919
00:55:12,265 --> 00:55:14,833
♪ On a cool damp night ♪
920
00:55:16,661 --> 00:55:19,403
♪ I gave myself
In that misty light ♪
921
00:55:20,012 --> 00:55:24,756
♪ I was hypnotized
By a strange delight ♪
922
00:55:25,234 --> 00:55:31,153
♪ Under a lilac tree ♪
923
00:55:31,328 --> 00:55:33,852
He sang
the whole show to me.
924
00:55:34,983 --> 00:55:36,028
It was like,
925
00:55:36,942 --> 00:55:39,640
"Man, this... this guy really
knows how to work."
926
00:55:39,814 --> 00:55:41,599
Work me right now.
927
00:55:43,731 --> 00:55:46,386
I was feeling like,
"Oh, I got this,"
928
00:55:46,560 --> 00:55:48,954
and then being like,
"Oh, I don't got this."
929
00:55:49,128 --> 00:55:51,260
This person is too powerful.
930
00:55:51,435 --> 00:55:55,221
♪ Lilac wine ♪
931
00:55:56,091 --> 00:56:01,140
♪ Is sweet and heady ♪
932
00:56:02,141 --> 00:56:07,973
♪ Where's my love? ♪
933
00:56:11,193 --> 00:56:15,546
♪ Lilac wine ♪
934
00:56:15,720 --> 00:56:21,378
♪ I feel unsteady ♪
935
00:56:21,987 --> 00:56:28,907
♪ Where's my love? ♪
936
00:56:29,473 --> 00:56:31,518
♪ Listen to me ♪
937
00:56:31,779 --> 00:56:36,697
♪ Why is everything so hazy? ♪
938
00:56:37,132 --> 00:56:42,660
♪ Isn't that she
Or am I just going ♪
939
00:56:42,834 --> 00:56:49,536
♪ Crazy, dear? ♪
940
00:56:52,626 --> 00:56:56,543
That night
these jocky guys
941
00:56:56,717 --> 00:56:58,327
were, like, making fun of me.
942
00:56:58,502 --> 00:57:01,243
I had this very cartoony type
of hair,
943
00:57:01,418 --> 00:57:03,245
so I was pretty used to that.
944
00:57:03,420 --> 00:57:06,161
But Jeff leapt up and said,
945
00:57:06,335 --> 00:57:09,600
"You wouldn't know a woman
if she slapped you in the face!"
946
00:57:09,774 --> 00:57:13,125
I was like, "Oh, God,
that's so romantic. I love it."
947
00:57:13,299 --> 00:57:16,128
And like, "Fuck that.
I don't need defending."
948
00:57:17,390 --> 00:57:21,002
But I came to learn
that he was someone who was...
949
00:57:21,873 --> 00:57:24,919
a really staunch defender
of women.
950
00:57:25,093 --> 00:57:27,922
♪ I feel unsteady... ♪
951
00:57:28,096 --> 00:57:29,968
All people are sensitive,
952
00:57:30,142 --> 00:57:33,754
but his sensitivity
wasn't crushed...
953
00:57:34,668 --> 00:57:38,585
like some men's sensitivity
has been.
954
00:57:39,673 --> 00:57:41,588
♪ Listen to me ♪
955
00:57:41,806 --> 00:57:43,416
It stayed intact.
956
00:57:43,590 --> 00:57:47,202
♪ I cannot see clearly
Isn't that she... ♪
957
00:57:47,376 --> 00:57:49,509
You're talking about
two amazingly talented people
958
00:57:49,683 --> 00:57:50,684
who immediately connected.
959
00:57:51,424 --> 00:57:53,165
First thing I thought of,
"Oh, my God,
960
00:57:53,339 --> 00:57:56,908
they're gonna become a band,
and it's just gonna... rule."
961
00:57:58,170 --> 00:57:59,954
♪ Yeah! Yeah! ♪
962
00:58:02,914 --> 00:58:05,873
♪ I know how you like it child
Of mine, quick and tight ♪
963
00:58:06,134 --> 00:58:09,224
♪ When girls can't stand it
When you're doin' it right... ♪
964
00:58:09,398 --> 00:58:11,009
Jeff toured a lot.
965
00:58:11,183 --> 00:58:14,229
It was a slow growth
of that following.
966
00:58:15,709 --> 00:58:17,102
♪ Doin' it right ♪
967
00:58:17,668 --> 00:58:20,235
We toured almost
consistently for two years.
968
00:58:21,323 --> 00:58:23,412
What's life been
like since "Grace" came out?
969
00:58:23,587 --> 00:58:24,631
Work, work,
work, work, work.
970
00:58:24,805 --> 00:58:26,503
♪ I gotta kick 'em out! ♪
971
00:58:28,113 --> 00:58:32,857
His label,
they wanted him to be their...
972
00:58:35,207 --> 00:58:37,165
And he was like,
"Well, I have another idea
973
00:58:37,339 --> 00:58:38,906
of what that means."
974
00:58:39,080 --> 00:58:42,823
Being famous without content,
that really irks me.
975
00:58:42,997 --> 00:58:46,610
He did get discredited
by certain,
like, "cool" musicians
976
00:58:46,784 --> 00:58:48,263
because of the branding.
977
00:58:49,003 --> 00:58:52,224
He was chosen to be
in People magazine's
978
00:58:52,398 --> 00:58:54,443
"The 50 Most Beautiful People"
979
00:58:54,618 --> 00:58:56,315
or whatever the hell
that was called.
980
00:58:56,489 --> 00:58:59,274
The poor relatives, I think
one of them walked up to him,
981
00:58:59,448 --> 00:59:01,189
"Look, Jeff!
Look what I've got!"
982
00:59:01,363 --> 00:59:04,149
And he took her Sharpie
and just went...
983
00:59:05,367 --> 00:59:07,239
We went
to every newsstand
984
00:59:07,413 --> 00:59:10,198
and bought every single one.
He spent hundreds of dollars
985
00:59:10,372 --> 00:59:12,287
so that no one would see it
in his neighborhood.
986
00:59:12,461 --> 00:59:15,116
The entire show is dedicated
to People magazine.
987
00:59:15,290 --> 00:59:18,032
♪ Let me kick out
The jams, yeah ♪
988
00:59:18,206 --> 00:59:21,340
It was becoming an increasingly
stressful environment.
989
00:59:21,514 --> 00:59:22,733
♪ Done kick'em out! ♪
990
00:59:24,212 --> 00:59:26,519
You're very much
a public person now.
How does that feel?
991
00:59:26,998 --> 00:59:30,567
Well... I'm public
with the camera,
992
00:59:30,741 --> 00:59:33,091
but, uh, don't like TV.
993
00:59:34,919 --> 00:59:36,703
What does your TV station
wanna know about me?
994
00:59:47,496 --> 00:59:49,281
Once we got to Europe,
995
00:59:49,455 --> 00:59:52,632
I remember we felt a little...
...sense of relief.
996
01:00:00,335 --> 01:00:02,033
News reporter 2: Jeff Buckley
is being hailed
997
01:00:02,207 --> 01:00:03,382
as the next Bob Dylan.
998
01:00:07,299 --> 01:00:09,127
He has talent to burn,
and we recommend
999
01:00:09,301 --> 01:00:11,085
that you give this album
a listen.
1000
01:00:13,261 --> 01:00:15,481
♪ People came there from... ♪
1001
01:00:15,655 --> 01:00:18,179
The album
was doing better over there.
1002
01:00:21,530 --> 01:00:24,142
Radiohead came
to a show in London
1003
01:00:24,316 --> 01:00:26,231
and was so inspired by Jeff
1004
01:00:26,405 --> 01:00:28,799
that they left the concert
and went right to the studio
1005
01:00:28,973 --> 01:00:31,018
and recorded
"Fake Plastic Trees."
1006
01:00:31,192 --> 01:00:32,759
♪ Fake plas... ♪
1007
01:00:32,933 --> 01:00:34,674
In Paris,
we went to the opera
1008
01:00:34,848 --> 01:00:36,110
and walked along the Seine
1009
01:00:36,284 --> 01:00:38,460
and went to every café
that we could.
1010
01:00:40,985 --> 01:00:44,423
They fell in love with him.
And who wouldn't fall in love
1011
01:00:44,597 --> 01:00:46,904
when you do justice
to an Edith Piaf song?
1012
01:00:47,078 --> 01:00:49,994
♪ Oh, mon amour ♪
1013
01:00:50,168 --> 01:00:51,996
What about Edith Piaf?
1014
01:00:52,213 --> 01:00:56,522
- What's your attraction to her?
-To her sound, her voice.
1015
01:00:56,696 --> 01:00:59,743
♪ A toi toujours ♪
1016
01:00:59,917 --> 01:01:02,397
Her sexiness, the romance.
1017
01:01:03,485 --> 01:01:04,922
Her tragedy.
1018
01:01:05,096 --> 01:01:09,187
♪ Dans tes grands yeux ♪
1019
01:01:10,362 --> 01:01:12,016
No one could rock
like Jeff.
1020
01:01:12,538 --> 01:01:13,931
But once you do "Hallelujah"...
1021
01:01:14,105 --> 01:01:17,586
...God help you.
1022
01:01:32,253 --> 01:01:34,386
This is for Leonard,
wherever you are.
1023
01:01:34,560 --> 01:01:36,170
And this is for Nina Simone.
1024
01:01:39,434 --> 01:01:43,134
♪ And I ♪
1025
01:01:43,656 --> 01:01:48,182
♪ Heard there was
A secret chord ♪
1026
01:01:48,574 --> 01:01:52,491
♪ That David played
And it pleased the Lord ♪
1027
01:01:52,665 --> 01:01:58,323
♪ But you don't really care
For music, do ya? ♪
1028
01:02:00,499 --> 01:02:04,590
♪ But it goes like this
The fourth the fifth ♪
1029
01:02:04,764 --> 01:02:08,463
♪ The minor fall
And the major lift ♪
1030
01:02:08,725 --> 01:02:14,905
♪ The baffled king
Composing Hallelujah ♪
1031
01:02:15,514 --> 01:02:18,865
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1032
01:02:19,213 --> 01:02:22,303
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1033
01:02:23,000 --> 01:02:26,177
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1034
01:02:26,655 --> 01:02:33,619
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1035
01:02:41,975 --> 01:02:43,716
We were both on the road.
1036
01:02:43,890 --> 01:02:45,674
You know, it was,
like, so romantic.
1037
01:02:45,849 --> 01:02:48,416
Like, impossibly romantic.
1038
01:02:50,331 --> 01:02:56,120
But when we were together,
we created a space
1039
01:02:56,294 --> 01:03:00,689
where nothing was too scary
to talk about.
1040
01:03:02,213 --> 01:03:04,432
We both needed that so badly.
1041
01:03:06,086 --> 01:03:09,916
♪ And she tied you
To her kitchen chair ♪
1042
01:03:10,090 --> 01:03:13,833
♪ She broke your throne
And she cut your hair ♪
1043
01:03:14,007 --> 01:03:19,839
♪ And from your lips
She drew the Hallelujah ♪
1044
01:03:39,641 --> 01:03:41,818
My high school bullies
are undoubtedly living
1045
01:03:41,992 --> 01:03:44,342
a completely pathetic life.
1046
01:03:44,516 --> 01:03:47,649
♪ Maybe there's a God above ♪
1047
01:03:48,302 --> 01:03:51,175
♪ But all I've ever learned
From love ♪
1048
01:03:51,349 --> 01:03:56,441
♪ Was how to shoot somebody
Who outdrew ya ♪
1049
01:03:58,399 --> 01:04:02,229
We felt like
we found the person
1050
01:04:02,403 --> 01:04:04,928
that we felt the most safe with.
1051
01:04:05,972 --> 01:04:08,322
Nothing was off-limits.
1052
01:04:08,496 --> 01:04:10,063
♪ And it's a broken... ♪
1053
01:04:10,237 --> 01:04:13,501
We could just be free, really,
for the first time.
1054
01:04:13,675 --> 01:04:15,895
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1055
01:04:17,070 --> 01:04:19,856
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1056
01:04:20,857 --> 01:04:23,903
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1057
01:04:25,078 --> 01:04:31,606
♪ Hallelu... ♪
1058
01:04:36,176 --> 01:04:38,613
♪ Jah ♪
1059
01:04:45,446 --> 01:04:46,273
Thanks a lot.
1060
01:04:52,192 --> 01:04:54,760
What is
the connecting thread?
Because you'll do a cover
1061
01:04:54,934 --> 01:04:59,286
of Bad Brains or of The Smiths
or of Edith Piaf or...
1062
01:04:59,460 --> 01:05:02,507
Um... Probably,
my mindless hero worship.
1063
01:05:05,031 --> 01:05:06,554
♪ Hey, hey, mama said
The way you move ♪
1064
01:05:06,728 --> 01:05:08,861
♪ Gonna make you sweat
Gonna make you groove ♪
1065
01:05:09,035 --> 01:05:10,645
This is Jimmy Page
and this is...
1066
01:05:10,863 --> 01:05:13,866
Uh, I'm Robert Plant and, uh,
we're at the 99th festival
1067
01:05:14,040 --> 01:05:16,608
of this tour Europennes.
And it's, uh...
1068
01:05:16,782 --> 01:05:19,132
-Sorry, "Eurockéennes."
- I don't care.
1069
01:05:19,828 --> 01:05:21,874
We're at
the Eurockéennes festival, eh?
1070
01:05:22,527 --> 01:05:24,050
Vive le rock!
1071
01:05:29,969 --> 01:05:31,275
I don't think
Jeff had ever seen
1072
01:05:31,449 --> 01:05:33,277
Page and Plant live.
1073
01:05:33,451 --> 01:05:35,496
My main
musical influences,
1074
01:05:35,670 --> 01:05:40,719
love, anger, depression, joy
and Zeppelin.
1075
01:05:40,893 --> 01:05:42,503
It was like he was going
to Mecca or something.
1076
01:05:42,677 --> 01:05:46,116
♪ My life happily without ya ♪
1077
01:05:47,117 --> 01:05:49,206
Backstage at the festival,
1078
01:05:49,380 --> 01:05:51,469
I felt something
over my shoulder.
1079
01:05:52,209 --> 01:05:53,123
It was like heat.
1080
01:05:54,689 --> 01:05:58,084
And I turned around,
Jeff was walking towards me.
1081
01:05:58,693 --> 01:06:01,174
He put his hand
on my shoulder, said, "Hey,
1082
01:06:01,348 --> 01:06:03,220
I love
your slide-guitar playing.
1083
01:06:03,394 --> 01:06:05,570
Could you show me
some slide-guitar stuff?"
And I said,
1084
01:06:06,266 --> 01:06:08,094
"Well, Jeff,
you can probably show me
1085
01:06:08,268 --> 01:06:10,183
some...
some slide-guitar stuff."
1086
01:06:10,357 --> 01:06:11,968
He said, "No, please,
show me," you know?
1087
01:06:12,490 --> 01:06:14,448
And he said, "Hey,
Page and Plant are playing."
1088
01:06:14,622 --> 01:06:16,537
"When I... When I get off,
if we go straight there,
1089
01:06:16,711 --> 01:06:19,453
we'll make it. We'll meet
at the side of the stage."
1090
01:06:19,627 --> 01:06:22,630
And we were both really excited,
obviously, to see them.
1091
01:06:27,418 --> 01:06:29,202
After Jeff's show,
1092
01:06:29,376 --> 01:06:31,465
I go around,
where I'm in the pit.
1093
01:06:35,208 --> 01:06:36,993
We're looking for Jeff
constantly.
1094
01:06:39,517 --> 01:06:41,562
Trying to watch the show.
We're trying to look for Jeff.
1095
01:06:43,390 --> 01:06:44,217
We looked up.
1096
01:06:45,697 --> 01:06:47,525
He's just out of my periphery.
1097
01:06:49,135 --> 01:06:50,876
Oh, shit!
1098
01:06:51,485 --> 01:06:53,792
There's Jeff, hanging,
all the way up,
1099
01:06:53,966 --> 01:06:54,836
off the scaffolding.
1100
01:06:55,011 --> 01:06:55,881
♪ Oh ♪
1101
01:06:57,709 --> 01:07:04,977
Zeppelin is at full throttle,
and Jeff is with every decibel
1102
01:07:05,151 --> 01:07:07,197
coursing through his veins.
1103
01:07:07,371 --> 01:07:09,721
- You can call it death-defying.
- ♪ [music continues] ♪
1104
01:07:13,681 --> 01:07:16,728
♪ Oh-oh! ♪
1105
01:07:16,945 --> 01:07:20,166
The volume of music
as it passes into your body
1106
01:07:20,340 --> 01:07:23,082
turns you into an instrument
that your own ears hear.
1107
01:07:23,909 --> 01:07:26,607
There's a great deal of comfort,
in the same way
1108
01:07:26,781 --> 01:07:29,523
that a baby's greatly comforted
by their mother.
1109
01:07:32,613 --> 01:07:35,138
He looked at us
and gave us a wave, like,
1110
01:07:35,312 --> 01:07:39,011
like... said,
like, "Come on up."
1111
01:07:39,838 --> 01:07:41,840
Like, the water's warm.
1112
01:07:45,670 --> 01:07:49,500
Music, it was my mother.
It was my father.
1113
01:07:58,117 --> 01:07:59,771
When he was back
in New York,
1114
01:07:59,945 --> 01:08:02,687
we went and saw
Nusrat play at Town Hall.
1115
01:08:06,734 --> 01:08:09,389
After the show,
we went backstage.
1116
01:08:09,563 --> 01:08:12,610
Nusrat, very, like, placid.
1117
01:08:12,784 --> 01:08:16,309
And here was this, like,
bouncing-around Jeff.
1118
01:08:17,005 --> 01:08:18,659
Nusrat did not speak
any English,
1119
01:08:18,833 --> 01:08:20,270
and Jeff was trying
to connect with him,
1120
01:08:20,444 --> 01:08:23,099
and then he just started s...
Oh.
1121
01:08:36,938 --> 01:08:38,984
Nusrat, like,
looked at him, like...
1122
01:08:40,594 --> 01:08:42,379
"What the fuck is going on?"
1123
01:08:47,993 --> 01:08:49,908
The smile came
on his face,
1124
01:08:50,082 --> 01:08:53,607
and it was just instant respect
and love.
1125
01:08:56,741 --> 01:08:59,004
That
is a universal language.
1126
01:09:01,963 --> 01:09:03,835
I didn't only
just listen to things.
1127
01:09:04,009 --> 01:09:07,708
I totally, absolutely
lionized everybody
1128
01:09:08,274 --> 01:09:09,449
having anything to do with it.
1129
01:09:11,930 --> 01:09:16,108
Some of Jeff's heroes
eventually became fans of him.
1130
01:09:16,978 --> 01:09:19,503
I was at a show at Roseland
where Paul McCartney
1131
01:09:19,677 --> 01:09:23,115
and Linda McCartney came.
And it was just amazing.
1132
01:09:23,289 --> 01:09:26,162
There is this one shot where
he's looking at me going like...
1133
01:09:26,336 --> 01:09:27,511
"Can you believe it?"
1134
01:09:29,208 --> 01:09:30,992
But some of those heroes
1135
01:09:31,167 --> 01:09:34,257
also recognized
his father's work as well.
1136
01:09:34,431 --> 01:09:37,303
That was difficult for him
'cause, like, Linda McCartney
1137
01:09:37,477 --> 01:09:39,914
knew his father better
than he did.
1138
01:09:43,527 --> 01:09:46,225
In these situations,
I'm hoping that I'm understood.
1139
01:09:47,835 --> 01:09:50,098
But with comparisons,
I'm not understood.
1140
01:09:50,273 --> 01:09:51,622
I have my own way.
1141
01:09:52,753 --> 01:09:56,714
Jeff would buy all
of Tim's CDs at Tower Records,
1142
01:09:57,410 --> 01:09:59,978
listen to them
and then throw them out.
1143
01:10:00,761 --> 01:10:04,896
♪ If it keeps on rainin'
Levee's gonna break ♪
1144
01:10:05,070 --> 01:10:06,941
Led Zeppelin
was being inducted in '95
1145
01:10:07,115 --> 01:10:08,247
into the Rock and Roll
Hall of Fame.
1146
01:10:08,421 --> 01:10:10,031
♪ If it keeps on rainin'... ♪
1147
01:10:10,336 --> 01:10:12,817
I'd never seen Jeff
so starstruck.
1148
01:10:13,818 --> 01:10:15,515
And he just started pointing,
1149
01:10:15,689 --> 01:10:19,389
"You're the one that's been
in my head all these years."
1150
01:10:19,563 --> 01:10:20,694
"It's you."
1151
01:10:22,479 --> 01:10:24,394
At one point
during the evening,
1152
01:10:24,568 --> 01:10:27,397
Robert Plant said something
to Jeff, like,
1153
01:10:27,571 --> 01:10:29,486
"You're the greatest new singer
in the world."
1154
01:10:30,965 --> 01:10:34,534
It freaked Jeff out.
He turned white.
1155
01:10:35,318 --> 01:10:38,669
Got up, I don't know
what he did, where he went,
1156
01:10:38,843 --> 01:10:40,366
but he was missing
for, like, two days.
1157
01:10:41,019 --> 01:10:42,890
Hi, it's me. Uh...
1158
01:10:43,064 --> 01:10:45,415
Where you've been?
Where are you?
1159
01:10:45,589 --> 01:10:47,504
[over voicemail] Hi, Jeff.
I haven't heard from you. Um,
1160
01:10:47,678 --> 01:10:49,027
I assume
you're blowing me off.
1161
01:10:49,201 --> 01:10:51,072
It's like you've disappeared.
1162
01:10:51,247 --> 01:10:53,510
Woman 2: Where could you be?
Where... where could you be?
1163
01:10:53,684 --> 01:10:56,643
This is your mom.
You can call me.
1164
01:11:00,386 --> 01:11:02,258
I need to hear from you now.
1165
01:11:02,432 --> 01:11:05,043
I noticed
Jeff's depression started
1166
01:11:05,217 --> 01:11:06,349
started to kick in.
1167
01:11:07,175 --> 01:11:08,481
Automated voice:
Your mailbox is full.
1168
01:11:09,656 --> 01:11:11,267
There was so much
on his mind,
1169
01:11:11,441 --> 01:11:13,312
but he wasn't talking about it.
1170
01:11:13,486 --> 01:11:15,183
And he just felt heavy.
1171
01:11:28,588 --> 01:11:30,111
We all, like,
1172
01:11:30,286 --> 01:11:32,418
experimented with taking drugs and stuff.
1173
01:11:33,114 --> 01:11:35,029
It was sometimes a bit crazy,
but, like,
1174
01:11:35,682 --> 01:11:38,729
he... I never got, like,
an addict vibe from him at all.
1175
01:11:39,382 --> 01:11:41,775
Yeah, there was dipping
and dabbling and stuff.
1176
01:11:42,689 --> 01:11:44,125
Some more than others.
1177
01:11:45,475 --> 01:11:47,259
I teach you
no more karate! You...
1178
01:11:47,433 --> 01:11:48,826
But I couldn't be
around it.
1179
01:11:50,828 --> 01:11:52,830
Next year, then, will that mean
a new Jeff Buckley album?
1180
01:11:53,396 --> 01:11:54,658
I have to work on it this year.
1181
01:11:54,832 --> 01:11:56,964
- Mm.
- So, something will be out...
1182
01:11:58,096 --> 01:12:00,620
No. You know what?
I can't make any promises now.
1183
01:12:00,794 --> 01:12:02,709
I'll be a corpse
by then.
1184
01:12:04,668 --> 01:12:06,496
Ladies and gentlemen,
Jeff Buckley.
1185
01:12:06,670 --> 01:12:07,801
It's a great... Thank you, sir.
1186
01:12:10,935 --> 01:12:13,372
I feel like,
as his fame grew,
1187
01:12:13,546 --> 01:12:17,333
the demands of success
started to irritate him.
1188
01:12:18,769 --> 01:12:20,553
The label was kind of
breathing down his back
1189
01:12:20,727 --> 01:12:22,294
for the second album.
1190
01:12:22,947 --> 01:12:27,168
I think he was weighed down
by the debt that he owed them.
1191
01:12:28,039 --> 01:12:31,738
Millions of dollars
in debt with no hits
1192
01:12:31,912 --> 01:12:33,566
on your next record, yeah.
1193
01:12:34,132 --> 01:12:35,829
Well, you're
never gonna get out of the hole.
1194
01:12:36,613 --> 01:12:40,312
No one ever gets out of owing
a record label money
1195
01:12:40,486 --> 01:12:41,748
because that's how
it's structured.
1196
01:12:43,402 --> 01:12:47,885
That probably
would've been very scary
1197
01:12:48,059 --> 01:12:50,453
to Jeff, and maybe he thought
1198
01:12:50,627 --> 01:12:54,848
that the type of deal
that he had may have been...
1199
01:12:55,022 --> 01:12:57,198
...a little bit of a deal
with the devil, sometimes.
1200
01:12:57,373 --> 01:12:59,070
That's your bed.
1201
01:12:59,244 --> 01:13:01,246
And you made it
and you have to lie in it.
1202
01:13:01,420 --> 01:13:05,685
Jeff started to spiral
around this fear that he has
1203
01:13:05,903 --> 01:13:07,905
of the loss
of his artistic freedom.
1204
01:13:08,949 --> 01:13:11,604
Columbia Records' meetings
would be very...
1205
01:13:13,650 --> 01:13:15,086
full... full of pressure,
you know,
1206
01:13:15,260 --> 01:13:17,175
when Jeff didn't wanna do
something.
1207
01:13:17,349 --> 01:13:19,612
Every parasite needs its host,
and we are them.
1208
01:13:19,786 --> 01:13:21,745
- I'm Jeff Buckley.
- And I'm Michael Tighe.
1209
01:13:21,919 --> 01:13:23,703
We've been guest-parasite
hosting tonight.
1210
01:13:27,054 --> 01:13:29,927
The label wanted
the next record to come out,
1211
01:13:30,101 --> 01:13:31,363
but they were still touring.
1212
01:13:31,537 --> 01:13:35,106
"Make another... album."
1213
01:13:35,280 --> 01:13:38,762
"Please." Oh, my God.
1214
01:13:41,591 --> 01:13:43,506
You've taken
your time, haven't you?
1215
01:13:43,680 --> 01:13:44,942
I mean... You haven't rushed
1216
01:13:45,159 --> 01:13:46,857
into recording
the follow-up album.
1217
01:13:47,031 --> 01:13:48,728
Only because of being
on the road so long.
1218
01:13:48,902 --> 01:13:50,556
Do you anticipate
that it's gonna take...
1219
01:13:50,730 --> 01:13:52,166
- months and months?
-If it takes any longer,
1220
01:13:52,340 --> 01:13:53,907
you'll find me swinging
from a noose.
1221
01:13:54,821 --> 01:13:57,650
Get in the van,
eight hours a day, every day,
1222
01:13:57,824 --> 01:13:59,391
for, like,
two-and-a-half years, bro.
1223
01:13:59,565 --> 01:14:02,133
Like, can I just have
some fucking space?
1224
01:14:02,307 --> 01:14:05,266
♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪
1225
01:14:05,658 --> 01:14:07,007
♪ Yeah ♪
1226
01:14:09,227 --> 01:14:13,057
Then? I was nuts.
I was fucking nuts.
1227
01:14:13,231 --> 01:14:14,754
And the last thing I need
1228
01:14:14,928 --> 01:14:18,105
is another nuts motherfucker
next to me.
1229
01:14:19,455 --> 01:14:21,413
All right!
1230
01:14:21,587 --> 01:14:23,633
And obviously
Jesus on the drums.
1231
01:14:24,503 --> 01:14:25,417
Thank you!
1232
01:14:27,245 --> 01:14:29,203
You could really
feel the disconnect
1233
01:14:29,377 --> 01:14:31,118
between Jeff and Matt.
1234
01:14:32,555 --> 01:14:33,860
And I think Jeff felt...
1235
01:14:34,644 --> 01:14:36,950
like he was being abandoned
by a brother.
1236
01:14:38,561 --> 01:14:41,955
♪ Sometimes I feel
Like I don't have a partner ♪
1237
01:14:46,699 --> 01:14:48,658
So, Matty quit
the band, said he was done.
1238
01:14:51,225 --> 01:14:54,446
I myself am erratic.
Music is erratic.
1239
01:14:54,620 --> 01:14:56,622
If people look upon music
1240
01:14:56,796 --> 01:14:58,711
as something
to have control over
1241
01:14:58,885 --> 01:15:02,323
or something to be...
uniform and... and predictable,
1242
01:15:02,498 --> 01:15:04,412
then it's their funeral.
1243
01:15:06,632 --> 01:15:08,242
I'm gonna come home.
1244
01:15:09,287 --> 01:15:10,549
I'll record, definitely,
1245
01:15:10,723 --> 01:15:11,681
I just wanna come home
and experiment
1246
01:15:11,855 --> 01:15:14,031
and get all these ideas out.
1247
01:15:16,337 --> 01:15:18,252
Where would you like to see
yourself in ten years?
1248
01:15:18,426 --> 01:15:19,950
Ten years from now.
1249
01:15:20,124 --> 01:15:22,213
I don't see myself ten years
from now. At all.
1250
01:15:26,304 --> 01:15:27,871
"I just don't."
1251
01:15:29,220 --> 01:15:32,702
Just a blank movie screen.
Just a void.
1252
01:15:33,833 --> 01:15:34,791
What can I tell you?
1253
01:15:39,186 --> 01:15:43,277
I heard "Grace"
in the summer of '96
1254
01:15:43,451 --> 01:15:47,020
and within two weeks,
I would meet Jeff.
1255
01:15:47,194 --> 01:15:50,023
"We need a drummer. We'd love...
You come, try out."
1256
01:15:50,197 --> 01:15:51,982
♪ You and I ♪
1257
01:15:52,156 --> 01:15:55,768
Jeff had so much...
fear around this record.
1258
01:15:56,377 --> 01:15:57,422
He wasn't ready.
1259
01:15:58,728 --> 01:16:00,904
He is questioning
everything.
1260
01:16:01,078 --> 01:16:04,560
"Was the first album a fluke?
Am I an imposter?"
1261
01:16:08,085 --> 01:16:12,829
"Grace" was a compilation
of everything that he had done
1262
01:16:13,003 --> 01:16:14,831
until he was 27.
1263
01:16:15,005 --> 01:16:18,095
He wondered, "Do I have
another record in me?"
1264
01:16:18,269 --> 01:16:20,358
"Do I need another 27 years?"
1265
01:16:20,532 --> 01:16:22,578
Then you have
the record company guys
1266
01:16:22,752 --> 01:16:25,755
coming down to check in on us
and see our progress.
1267
01:16:25,929 --> 01:16:27,408
I was like,
"Are you kidding me?"
1268
01:16:28,845 --> 01:16:31,761
We wanted to be able
to supply the inspiration
1269
01:16:31,935 --> 01:16:33,501
that would get him
to the next level,
1270
01:16:33,676 --> 01:16:36,330
but I think he felt he had
to do that on his own.
1271
01:16:36,504 --> 01:16:42,032
♪ Sleeping with his arms
Around the hips of fate ♪
1272
01:16:42,598 --> 01:16:46,993
♪ And his tears
Scattered round the world ♪
1273
01:16:47,167 --> 01:16:52,303
♪ Angel, go give him
His dreams ♪
1274
01:16:52,477 --> 01:16:59,092
♪ And my cold, black visions ♪
1275
01:17:01,529 --> 01:17:04,010
So many of the people
he admired had...
1276
01:17:05,055 --> 01:17:07,361
somehow self-destructed.
1277
01:17:07,535 --> 01:17:12,497
People think that, mm...
my father and the EP
1278
01:17:12,671 --> 01:17:14,064
is all there is to talk about.
1279
01:17:15,195 --> 01:17:17,763
And then
to have Jeff come from a father
1280
01:17:17,937 --> 01:17:19,809
who had died young,
1281
01:17:19,983 --> 01:17:22,420
he was really trying
to be healthier.
1282
01:17:23,856 --> 01:17:26,380
On his 29th birthday,
Jeff turned to me and said,
1283
01:17:26,554 --> 01:17:29,253
"I've now outlived my father."
1284
01:17:29,427 --> 01:17:33,431
It was a really strange reality
for him to face.
1285
01:17:33,605 --> 01:17:36,782
♪ Eyes to the burning... ♪
1286
01:17:38,131 --> 01:17:42,266
He said... "I have
to tell you something about me.
1287
01:17:43,093 --> 01:17:44,747
I'm not gonna last that long.
1288
01:17:47,401 --> 01:17:50,448
I just have to tell you
what it feels like,
1289
01:17:50,622 --> 01:17:52,102
because I wanna warn you."
1290
01:17:53,320 --> 01:17:55,583
And I said,
"I'm not going anywhere."
1291
01:17:58,369 --> 01:18:00,632
And because
of his father dying...
1292
01:18:02,503 --> 01:18:05,071
I thought,
"Of course, you think that."
1293
01:18:05,245 --> 01:18:07,204
"That makes
all the sense in the world."
1294
01:18:17,083 --> 01:18:20,608
♪ Don't be like the one
Who made me so old ♪
1295
01:18:20,783 --> 01:18:25,091
♪ Don't be like the one
Who left behind his name ♪
1296
01:18:25,962 --> 01:18:30,357
♪ 'Cause they're waiting for you
Like I waited for mine ♪
1297
01:18:30,531 --> 01:18:34,144
♪ And nobody ever came ♪
1298
01:18:34,318 --> 01:18:37,147
♪ Nobody ever... ♪
1299
01:18:47,026 --> 01:18:49,028
At the end of three years
of touring, who do you know?
1300
01:18:50,377 --> 01:18:52,162
What sort of life do you have?
1301
01:18:52,858 --> 01:18:55,034
It's a little corrosive
and a little frustrating.
1302
01:18:55,208 --> 01:18:57,254
And, uh, that's why
I have to go away.
1303
01:18:58,559 --> 01:19:00,736
I have to find someplace
and really sink into it.
1304
01:19:21,844 --> 01:19:24,411
Jeff found this house
on Rembert Street.
1305
01:19:27,284 --> 01:19:33,420
He didn't have a lawnmower,
so it became overgrown.
1306
01:19:35,422 --> 01:19:38,730
I would visit him
for a week a month.
1307
01:19:41,515 --> 01:19:45,998
I remember lying with him
in the grass.
1308
01:19:49,610 --> 01:19:51,047
No one could see us.
1309
01:19:52,657 --> 01:19:55,138
Joan had said to me,
"Take care of Jeff."
1310
01:19:55,312 --> 01:19:58,794
"Keep his feet on the ground."
And I took that seriously.
1311
01:20:01,709 --> 01:20:06,366
There seemed to be...
some normalcy, some grounding.
1312
01:20:06,540 --> 01:20:08,586
- Some cooking.
- Uh, some cooking, food.
1313
01:20:09,543 --> 01:20:12,024
And I feel
that Jeff came here
1314
01:20:12,546 --> 01:20:15,680
where there's not as much
external stimulation...
1315
01:20:17,116 --> 01:20:19,292
in order to process...
1316
01:20:21,642 --> 01:20:23,731
and not just to create.
1317
01:20:24,384 --> 01:20:30,260
♪ Take the pain
Until it all rings hollow ♪
1318
01:20:32,262 --> 01:20:34,220
Without ordinary life,
there's no art.
1319
01:20:37,615 --> 01:20:41,967
Balanced meals. Reading,
sleeping, relationships.
1320
01:20:44,143 --> 01:20:48,060
♪ Lilac wine ♪
1321
01:20:48,234 --> 01:20:49,279
Love.
1322
01:20:51,455 --> 01:20:57,374
♪ I feel I'm ready ♪
1323
01:20:57,548 --> 01:21:00,072
It felt like
he felt safe there.
1324
01:21:02,466 --> 01:21:05,425
He would wear my dresses
in the house sometimes,
1325
01:21:06,209 --> 01:21:07,688
and loved wearing them.
1326
01:21:09,429 --> 01:21:12,041
He just wanted to be anonymous
1327
01:21:12,215 --> 01:21:15,740
and be able to talk to anybody
in the bookstore,
1328
01:21:16,306 --> 01:21:19,309
not worrying
if they were talking to him
1329
01:21:19,483 --> 01:21:21,180
because they knew who he was.
1330
01:21:29,536 --> 01:21:32,191
Early one morning,
I went to pick him up,
1331
01:21:32,931 --> 01:21:34,802
and he was crying.
1332
01:21:34,977 --> 01:21:37,109
I said, "We wanna talk about
what's going on."
1333
01:21:37,283 --> 01:21:39,677
And he said
it had to do with his mom.
1334
01:21:40,504 --> 01:21:42,419
Yeah, well...
1335
01:21:45,248 --> 01:21:47,293
One day, I went to visit
a friend in Los Angeles.
1336
01:21:47,467 --> 01:21:49,426
I didn't have Internet
at the time.
1337
01:21:49,948 --> 01:21:52,168
And she had a computer
all set up, and she said,
1338
01:21:52,342 --> 01:21:55,258
"Oh, you know, here's
a chat room all about Jeff."
1339
01:21:55,432 --> 01:21:57,651
So, I sat there and read
some of the comments,
1340
01:21:57,825 --> 01:21:59,262
and they were
just a bunch of bullshit.
1341
01:22:01,090 --> 01:22:03,353
So, I said,
"Hi, I'm his mom."
1342
01:22:03,527 --> 01:22:05,964
"I want you to know
none of that is true."
1343
01:22:07,052 --> 01:22:08,445
Well...
1344
01:22:09,750 --> 01:22:11,491
...that did not go over well.
1345
01:22:11,665 --> 01:22:14,407
It got back to his manager
that I was,
1346
01:22:14,581 --> 01:22:17,149
you know,
"dealing with the fan club"
1347
01:22:17,323 --> 01:22:19,804
and saying things
that he didn't want me to say,
1348
01:22:19,978 --> 01:22:22,894
et cetera, et cetera.
And he got really pissed at me.
1349
01:22:23,068 --> 01:22:25,592
Oh, hey, mama.
1350
01:22:25,766 --> 01:22:28,421
You've gotta fucking
grow up, all right?
1351
01:22:28,944 --> 01:22:31,859
You can't be a girl anymore,
ma, you gotta be a woman.
1352
01:22:32,556 --> 01:22:33,861
I had to be the man.
1353
01:22:34,036 --> 01:22:35,646
I had to be the man
in your house.
1354
01:22:37,517 --> 01:22:40,825
Just get the anger and the pain
that was rested upon you.
1355
01:22:40,999 --> 01:22:43,393
You get rid of that shit.
1356
01:22:43,567 --> 01:22:44,698
'Cause that's in me.
1357
01:22:45,569 --> 01:22:48,180
Everything you experienced
at home, it's in me.
1358
01:22:55,100 --> 01:22:57,233
We never had a "falling out."
1359
01:22:58,234 --> 01:22:59,800
And it was serious.
1360
01:22:59,975 --> 01:23:01,889
And we didn't spend Christmas
together that year.
1361
01:23:02,064 --> 01:23:05,763
He went to Northern California
and spent it with his stepdad.
1362
01:23:14,467 --> 01:23:18,689
Jeff got real serious
and turned, took my hands,
1363
01:23:18,863 --> 01:23:21,648
looked down, very dejected,
1364
01:23:22,432 --> 01:23:25,609
and said very quietly,
"I don't know how to be a man."
1365
01:23:39,231 --> 01:23:41,755
He was looking
at who raised him
1366
01:23:41,929 --> 01:23:44,628
and formed his ability
1367
01:23:44,802 --> 01:23:47,413
to deal with life
on a day-to-day basis.
1368
01:23:48,414 --> 01:23:51,591
He was looking
for answers, really,
1369
01:23:52,114 --> 01:23:53,898
from a ghost, from his father.
1370
01:24:01,558 --> 01:24:05,214
♪ Once I was a soldier ♪
1371
01:24:07,520 --> 01:24:11,307
♪ And I fought
On foreign sands for you ♪
1372
01:24:11,524 --> 01:24:14,875
Jeff could shift gears,
though, very quickly.
1373
01:24:19,924 --> 01:24:22,579
His mind worked like a... radio
1374
01:24:22,753 --> 01:24:25,886
that was tuned
to all frequencies at once.
1375
01:24:30,848 --> 01:24:33,068
♪ Manic depression... ♪
1376
01:24:34,895 --> 01:24:38,377
How you doin'?
Hi. Hi. Hello.
1377
01:24:39,465 --> 01:24:40,336
I wanted to, uh,
1378
01:24:41,380 --> 01:24:44,122
share a little bit
of what's happening with me.
1379
01:24:45,602 --> 01:24:47,169
We're in big trouble over here.
1380
01:24:47,343 --> 01:24:48,909
He said,
1381
01:24:49,084 --> 01:24:50,650
"I realized something."
1382
01:24:50,824 --> 01:24:52,870
"I think I'm manic depressive."
1383
01:24:54,176 --> 01:24:55,612
I didn't know what that meant.
1384
01:24:55,829 --> 01:24:57,396
I thought immediately
of the Jimi Hendrix song.
1385
01:24:57,570 --> 01:24:59,398
♪ Yeah ♪
1386
01:25:00,312 --> 01:25:04,838
We know so much now about
chemical imbalances and stuff.
1387
01:25:05,012 --> 01:25:09,191
And we just... I didn't.
And nobody did then.
1388
01:25:14,718 --> 01:25:16,546
He was
in a really heightened state
1389
01:25:16,720 --> 01:25:20,289
and was having
really disturbing visions,
1390
01:25:20,985 --> 01:25:23,074
like visiting the devil.
1391
01:25:23,683 --> 01:25:25,642
He took me into the attic.
1392
01:25:25,816 --> 01:25:29,036
There was a dead bird
laying on the floor
1393
01:25:29,211 --> 01:25:31,126
and his black skull candle.
1394
01:25:32,953 --> 01:25:35,565
He sent a fax
to the office and he's like,
1395
01:25:35,739 --> 01:25:37,784
"I got the cover
for the next album."
1396
01:25:40,787 --> 01:25:43,486
We comment,
"And this is too X-rated."
1397
01:25:43,660 --> 01:25:45,618
"We can't send this to Sony."
1398
01:25:46,184 --> 01:25:48,491
He said that he dreamed
he had a brain tumor
1399
01:25:48,665 --> 01:25:51,494
and he thought
that he was going to die.
1400
01:25:52,234 --> 01:25:55,280
It was
what I understand now
1401
01:25:55,454 --> 01:25:57,152
to be a psychotic break.
1402
01:25:57,978 --> 01:25:59,937
The same thing
was going on with Hendrix
1403
01:26:00,198 --> 01:26:01,895
and Joplin and Morrison.
1404
01:26:02,069 --> 01:26:04,115
Chemical imbalance mixed
with some sort of trauma
1405
01:26:04,289 --> 01:26:07,118
that's only sustainable
for so much time
1406
01:26:07,292 --> 01:26:10,165
until either it gets fixed
or it fixes you.
1407
01:26:11,514 --> 01:26:12,906
I'll never forget,
he always said,
1408
01:26:13,080 --> 01:26:15,518
"I'm not gonna end up
like my father,
1409
01:26:16,083 --> 01:26:17,302
with a tag on my toe."
1410
01:26:24,875 --> 01:26:26,790
Jeff had gone
to the zoo numerous times
1411
01:26:26,964 --> 01:26:29,619
and loved the butterfly house.
1412
01:26:35,102 --> 01:26:36,843
But he felt like
the guy working
1413
01:26:37,017 --> 01:26:41,196
in the butterfly house
was mistreating the chrysalis.
1414
01:26:42,806 --> 01:26:46,113
He felt
he could be more gentle.
1415
01:26:50,074 --> 01:26:52,119
Hi, Rebecca. It's Jeff.
1416
01:26:52,903 --> 01:26:56,559
Sweet dreams and, uh,
play lots of music.
1417
01:26:57,386 --> 01:26:59,083
Sing beautiful songs.
1418
01:27:00,519 --> 01:27:03,000
The last conversation
we had,
1419
01:27:03,174 --> 01:27:05,655
he woke me up with a phone call.
1420
01:27:12,792 --> 01:27:14,881
He was wanting
to clarify the past.
1421
01:27:15,621 --> 01:27:21,975
♪ And in that orchard
There was a hold ♪
1422
01:27:22,149 --> 01:27:23,368
He was apologizing.
1423
01:27:24,935 --> 01:27:28,678
I remember saying,
"It takes two, you know,
1424
01:27:28,852 --> 01:27:31,855
to... to mess things up
the way we did, and this is...
1425
01:27:32,029 --> 01:27:33,291
It's all good."
1426
01:27:34,205 --> 01:27:36,207
He said he was doing work
on his childhood
1427
01:27:36,381 --> 01:27:39,471
and, uh, that they were looking
for someone to help him,
1428
01:27:39,645 --> 01:27:41,343
presumably a counselor.
1429
01:27:41,517 --> 01:27:43,736
I'm gonna work
my ass off, baby.
1430
01:27:44,259 --> 01:27:46,217
And, uh, I'll see you
on the other side.
1431
01:27:48,001 --> 01:27:50,482
For, like, two weeks,
he, like, just called everybody
1432
01:27:50,656 --> 01:27:54,791
he knew, just to,
like, have... contact.
1433
01:27:59,274 --> 01:28:01,667
I remembered him
calling me and saying,
1434
01:28:01,841 --> 01:28:04,801
"I realized that you were right
about stuff and..."
1435
01:28:04,975 --> 01:28:07,891
I, you know, I wasn't even sure
what he meant by that
1436
01:28:08,065 --> 01:28:10,546
and I didn't know
how to follow it up and...
1437
01:28:11,895 --> 01:28:12,809
It's sad.
1438
01:28:14,506 --> 01:28:18,771
Jeff was very quiet
and didn't say anything.
1439
01:28:19,903 --> 01:28:21,208
I told him I loved him.
1440
01:28:22,209 --> 01:28:27,127
♪ And in that orchard
There was a hold ♪
1441
01:28:27,302 --> 01:28:32,045
I said to him, "I have photos
of you from your childhood."
1442
01:28:32,219 --> 01:28:35,397
"Would you like me
to send them to you?"
1443
01:28:35,571 --> 01:28:37,616
And, like, in a really
soft voice, he said,
1444
01:28:37,790 --> 01:28:39,183
"I'd like that."
1445
01:28:41,228 --> 01:28:45,320
I said, "You just got
to let go and not care...
1446
01:28:46,930 --> 01:28:48,714
if mistakes are made."
1447
01:29:04,948 --> 01:29:10,649
Barristers became
his second Sin-e of a kind
1448
01:29:11,563 --> 01:29:15,001
where he could go
and work out music...
1449
01:29:15,175 --> 01:29:16,655
♪ Fall in light ♪
1450
01:29:16,873 --> 01:29:20,746
...without having
the entirety of, say,
1451
01:29:20,920 --> 01:29:23,096
New York City find out about it.
1452
01:29:23,836 --> 01:29:26,970
♪ Feel no shame
For what you are ♪
1453
01:29:27,144 --> 01:29:30,103
I have been everything
on stage. I've been wrong.
1454
01:29:30,277 --> 01:29:31,888
I've been completely ugly.
I've been stupid.
1455
01:29:32,454 --> 01:29:35,195
I've been angry.
I've been totally in love.
1456
01:29:35,370 --> 01:29:37,850
I've been beautiful.
I've been hideous.
1457
01:29:38,024 --> 01:29:39,635
I've... I've lost my pants.
1458
01:29:40,723 --> 01:29:43,682
Uh, but I've... I've
never been bored.
1459
01:29:43,856 --> 01:29:47,077
I've never been dead on stage.
I've never been dead.
1460
01:29:48,557 --> 01:29:51,255
♪ Feel no shame
For what you are ♪
1461
01:29:51,429 --> 01:29:53,562
He left that
on my answering machine.
1462
01:29:53,736 --> 01:29:55,520
"Michael,
it's starting to click,
1463
01:29:55,694 --> 01:29:58,523
it's starting to feel like
the way the 'Grace' songs felt."
1464
01:29:58,697 --> 01:30:01,961
♪ Fall in love ♪
1465
01:30:02,135 --> 01:30:04,137
He hadn't played
anyone any of it.
1466
01:30:04,747 --> 01:30:08,707
His band was joining him
really soon
1467
01:30:08,881 --> 01:30:11,493
to start recording the record.
1468
01:30:12,102 --> 01:30:14,321
Just sometimes a...
a song gets into you and...
1469
01:30:14,496 --> 01:30:16,236
and just gets into you.
1470
01:30:16,411 --> 01:30:18,282
You know, it just happens to you
in a moment.
1471
01:30:21,241 --> 01:30:23,766
Me, Michael, and Mick
each got a four-track tape.
1472
01:30:25,158 --> 01:30:28,379
♪ Twenty-nine pearls
In your kiss ♪
1473
01:30:28,553 --> 01:30:30,468
♪ A singing smile ♪
1474
01:30:30,642 --> 01:30:35,995
♪ Coffee smell and lilac skin
Your flame in me ♪
1475
01:30:36,169 --> 01:30:40,217
I could feel that those songs
had come from a very pure place.
1476
01:30:40,391 --> 01:30:42,959
♪ A little bit young
And hassled ♪
1477
01:30:43,133 --> 01:30:46,571
He was doing it all
on headphones. I said,
1478
01:30:46,745 --> 01:30:49,313
"Jeff, you could get speakers,
and it would fill the room."
1479
01:30:49,487 --> 01:30:52,795
- ♪ ["Vancouver" playing] ♪
- ♪ Lady, all the troubles
are my fright ♪
1480
01:30:52,969 --> 01:30:55,972
♪ I disgust you ♪
1481
01:30:56,842 --> 01:31:01,673
♪ Feel the power
You cut the truth into you... ♪
1482
01:31:01,847 --> 01:31:03,762
He got
where he needed to go.
1483
01:31:03,936 --> 01:31:06,156
♪ I could kiss you ♪
1484
01:31:06,330 --> 01:31:10,290
♪ With lines of escape
In my mouth ♪
1485
01:31:10,465 --> 01:31:12,771
He's like,
"I wanna open up
a bank account,
1486
01:31:12,945 --> 01:31:15,731
buy this house,
and I wanna buy a car."
1487
01:31:16,601 --> 01:31:20,649
He was really happy
and having so...
1488
01:31:22,433 --> 01:31:23,608
much fun.
1489
01:31:26,263 --> 01:31:30,615
♪ They say
Everything can be replaced ♪
1490
01:31:33,400 --> 01:31:38,493
♪ But every distance
Is not near ♪
1491
01:31:38,667 --> 01:31:42,061
Jeff was supposedly on
the way to the rehearsal space.
1492
01:31:42,714 --> 01:31:45,369
He was
with the guitar tech, Foti.
1493
01:31:48,241 --> 01:31:51,201
They ended up going down
to Wolf River.
1494
01:31:52,985 --> 01:31:54,421
It was typical Jeff.
1495
01:31:54,596 --> 01:31:55,814
He thought,
"Oh, it's so beautiful."
1496
01:31:55,988 --> 01:31:57,686
"I'm gonna go in fully clothed."
1497
01:31:59,339 --> 01:32:01,864
No one swims down there.
It was muddy.
1498
01:32:02,038 --> 01:32:04,344
I don't know about currents.
There were boats.
1499
01:32:04,519 --> 01:32:08,000
♪ From the west
Down to the east ♪
1500
01:32:08,174 --> 01:32:09,654
He was listening
to "Whole Lotta Love"
1501
01:32:09,828 --> 01:32:11,482
by Led Zeppelin.
1502
01:32:12,135 --> 01:32:14,616
♪ Any day now ♪
1503
01:32:14,790 --> 01:32:16,748
Love, anger,
depression, joy...
1504
01:32:16,922 --> 01:32:18,837
♪ Any day now ♪
1505
01:32:19,011 --> 01:32:20,535
...and Zeppelin.
1506
01:32:20,883 --> 01:32:24,451
♪ I shall be released ♪
1507
01:32:27,324 --> 01:32:30,109
♪ Any day now ♪
1508
01:32:31,154 --> 01:32:34,026
♪ Any day now ♪
1509
01:32:35,114 --> 01:32:39,641
♪ I shall be released ♪
1510
01:32:39,815 --> 01:32:42,600
He probably went
in the water
1511
01:32:42,774 --> 01:32:45,168
as soon as we hit the tarmac.
1512
01:32:48,388 --> 01:32:51,217
We got to the house,
and it was kind of in disarray.
1513
01:32:51,391 --> 01:32:53,742
I kept thinking
1514
01:32:53,916 --> 01:32:56,745
I was gonna hear the screen door
squeak open in the back
1515
01:32:56,919 --> 01:32:58,398
and slam, you know,
1516
01:32:58,573 --> 01:33:00,879
and then he'd come
to the kitchen and we'd be like,
1517
01:33:01,053 --> 01:33:03,534
"Yo!" And he'd be like,
"What's up?"
1518
01:33:05,710 --> 01:33:07,712
Gene picks up the phone and...
1519
01:33:09,366 --> 01:33:11,107
just said, "Let's go."
1520
01:33:14,980 --> 01:33:16,895
I thought
he just swam across.
1521
01:33:18,984 --> 01:33:21,334
It was very quiet
and peaceful down there.
1522
01:33:22,335 --> 01:33:25,338
And the sun's setting.
You know, it's gonna be dusk.
1523
01:33:28,733 --> 01:33:30,735
Now, there's,
like, helicopters.
1524
01:33:40,527 --> 01:33:41,920
I picked up the phone
and said "Hello?"
1525
01:33:42,094 --> 01:33:43,487
and someone said,
1526
01:33:43,705 --> 01:33:45,315
"This is Memphis
Police Department."
1527
01:33:48,405 --> 01:33:49,536
And I said, "I'm coming."
1528
01:33:55,847 --> 01:33:57,588
The car pulled up in front...
1529
01:33:59,329 --> 01:34:02,506
and it was
Sergeant Mary Grace Johnson
1530
01:34:02,680 --> 01:34:04,464
of the Homicide Department.
1531
01:34:05,596 --> 01:34:09,818
And she said, "You know...
we have to have the sunshine...
1532
01:34:11,602 --> 01:34:13,299
'cause that'll bring
the body up.
1533
01:34:16,433 --> 01:34:19,741
If we wanna find him,
you have to stop the rain."
1534
01:34:51,947 --> 01:34:54,297
I was sitting
in his attic two or three days
1535
01:34:54,471 --> 01:34:55,864
after he went into the river.
1536
01:34:56,038 --> 01:34:58,083
And I just remember
breathing in,
1537
01:34:58,257 --> 01:35:02,827
and my breath, like,
just kept going in.
1538
01:35:03,001 --> 01:35:04,394
Like, I just, I had the, like,
1539
01:35:04,568 --> 01:35:06,918
the biggest inhalation
that I've ever had.
1540
01:35:07,092 --> 01:35:09,660
And I just felt like
my lungs puffing up
1541
01:35:09,834 --> 01:35:11,009
with air and, like,
1542
01:35:11,183 --> 01:35:13,446
my spine straightening,
you know?
1543
01:35:14,491 --> 01:35:18,364
And, um...
something switched in me,
1544
01:35:18,538 --> 01:35:23,718
and I kind of felt like
he was... gone.
1545
01:35:35,817 --> 01:35:37,601
Singer-songwriter
Jeff Buckley's body
1546
01:35:37,775 --> 01:35:39,559
finally surfaced
late Wednesday afternoon
1547
01:35:39,734 --> 01:35:42,780
at the foot of Memphis's famed
musical corridor, Beale Street.
1548
01:35:42,954 --> 01:35:44,739
As a friend watched helplessly
from shore,
1549
01:35:44,913 --> 01:35:47,524
Buckley disappeared under
the wake of a passing boat.
1550
01:35:47,698 --> 01:35:49,700
TV reporter: The irony
wasn't lost on anyone
1551
01:35:49,874 --> 01:35:51,833
that a man who lived
for his music
1552
01:35:52,007 --> 01:35:54,139
would be found dead
at the foot of Beale Street,
1553
01:35:54,313 --> 01:35:56,141
where he'd performed before.
1554
01:36:01,146 --> 01:36:03,496
I was
in Texas visiting family.
1555
01:36:04,193 --> 01:36:08,371
I was staring at Brays Bayou,
watching the water.
1556
01:36:09,720 --> 01:36:11,766
That was the same time
when Jeff died.
1557
01:36:18,903 --> 01:36:20,513
It was more than I could bear.
1558
01:36:27,259 --> 01:36:30,523
♪ Well, I heard
There was a secret chord ♪
1559
01:36:30,785 --> 01:36:33,700
♪ That David played
And it pleased the Lord... ♪
1560
01:36:33,875 --> 01:36:35,224
It was an undertow.
1561
01:36:35,398 --> 01:36:38,618
The Army Corps of Engineers
had actually
1562
01:36:38,793 --> 01:36:42,013
specifically dug
that viaduct area out
1563
01:36:42,187 --> 01:36:44,886
to keep it clear of debris,
so it dropped off.
1564
01:36:45,060 --> 01:36:48,541
And, obviously, being
fully clothed and weighted
1565
01:36:48,715 --> 01:36:50,456
and out there
for about 20 minutes,
1566
01:36:50,630 --> 01:36:54,504
plus an undertow,
his drowning made sense.
1567
01:36:54,678 --> 01:37:00,945
♪ Hallelujah, Hallelujah ♪
1568
01:37:01,816 --> 01:37:04,557
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1569
01:37:05,645 --> 01:37:10,476
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1570
01:37:10,650 --> 01:37:13,218
The autopsy report said
he had a beer in his system.
1571
01:37:13,392 --> 01:37:14,437
That's it.
1572
01:37:15,090 --> 01:37:17,483
I asked Rolling Stone
to please publish
1573
01:37:17,657 --> 01:37:20,747
the report to show that drugs
had nothing to do with it.
1574
01:37:20,922 --> 01:37:22,488
What's a shame
is that the story
1575
01:37:22,662 --> 01:37:24,099
was very sensationalistic.
1576
01:37:24,273 --> 01:37:26,275
It was very much like,
"Well, we don't know."
1577
01:37:26,449 --> 01:37:29,713
And, unfortunately,
I can't tell you how many people
1578
01:37:29,887 --> 01:37:32,890
I've ran into
in the last 20-something years
1579
01:37:33,064 --> 01:37:34,544
who are like,
"Oh, yeah, he died of drugs,"
1580
01:37:34,718 --> 01:37:37,112
or, "Oh, he followed
in his father's footsteps."
1581
01:37:37,677 --> 01:37:42,987
♪ And from your lips
She drew the Hallelujah ♪
1582
01:37:43,640 --> 01:37:50,342
♪ Hallelujah, Hallelujah ♪
1583
01:37:51,300 --> 01:37:54,346
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1584
01:37:54,956 --> 01:38:00,831
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1585
01:38:03,355 --> 01:38:05,009
Jeff was one
of the greatest singers
1586
01:38:05,183 --> 01:38:06,663
of all time.
1587
01:38:06,837 --> 01:38:09,927
♪ Well, baby
I've been here before ♪
1588
01:38:10,232 --> 01:38:12,887
♪ I've seen this room
And I've walked this floor ♪
1589
01:38:13,061 --> 01:38:14,932
I didn't
fully comprehend
1590
01:38:15,106 --> 01:38:17,587
how dope he was
when he was alive.
1591
01:38:18,980 --> 01:38:22,853
It was my first band,
and he was my boy,
1592
01:38:23,027 --> 01:38:24,724
and everything
just felt natural.
1593
01:38:25,682 --> 01:38:29,904
It was... a perfect example of,
you know,
1594
01:38:30,078 --> 01:38:32,167
youth is wasted on the young.
1595
01:38:33,951 --> 01:38:36,998
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1596
01:38:37,607 --> 01:38:40,436
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1597
01:38:41,306 --> 01:38:47,138
♪ Hallelujah, Hallelu... ♪
1598
01:38:47,312 --> 01:38:50,185
He had said,
"You should come out
to Memphis."
1599
01:38:50,359 --> 01:38:51,534
"It's beautiful here."
1600
01:38:52,143 --> 01:38:53,971
And I said,
"When your record's done,
1601
01:38:54,145 --> 01:38:56,191
I'd really love that."
1602
01:38:56,365 --> 01:38:59,498
♪ Well there was a time
When you let me know ♪
1603
01:38:59,672 --> 01:39:03,024
♪ What's really going on below ♪
1604
01:39:03,198 --> 01:39:08,420
♪ But now you never show that
To me, do ya? ♪
1605
01:39:09,073 --> 01:39:10,292
We were so young.
1606
01:39:11,510 --> 01:39:13,034
Like...
1607
01:39:14,383 --> 01:39:16,254
we'd... you know,
all of those things
1608
01:39:16,428 --> 01:39:20,432
that felt so urgent and scary,
those fall away.
1609
01:39:22,869 --> 01:39:24,610
And...
1610
01:39:25,960 --> 01:39:29,093
you know, I would have loved
to see him...
1611
01:39:30,051 --> 01:39:31,791
have those things fall away.
1612
01:39:31,966 --> 01:39:33,576
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1613
01:39:34,446 --> 01:39:39,495
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1614
01:39:51,463 --> 01:39:55,206
Hey, Maruka. Hey, mama.
1615
01:39:55,728 --> 01:39:56,773
This is your son.
1616
01:39:57,687 --> 01:39:59,776
There are somethings
I have to tell you.
1617
01:40:02,213 --> 01:40:03,562
It's very special to me...
1618
01:40:04,694 --> 01:40:07,958
that you are a person
that a child came from.
1619
01:40:10,308 --> 01:40:13,964
And you are a person
that fought for their child.
1620
01:40:14,573 --> 01:40:16,662
You know,
you fought for the child.
1621
01:40:18,490 --> 01:40:20,318
You got some fuckin' cojones...
1622
01:40:20,492 --> 01:40:22,799
...baby.
1623
01:40:23,800 --> 01:40:25,845
Ma... you know...
1624
01:40:27,151 --> 01:40:29,545
- anybody can be famous, Mary.
- ♪ [song concludes] ♪
1625
01:40:30,111 --> 01:40:32,156
Anybody can be
fucking famous, baby.
1626
01:40:32,330 --> 01:40:36,291
But it takes a real spirit,
you hear me?
1627
01:40:36,813 --> 01:40:40,773
It takes a real spirit...
to raise a kid.
1628
01:40:42,862 --> 01:40:44,473
You know, you brought me
into the world.
1629
01:40:46,475 --> 01:40:48,825
A lot of my phrasing
is from you, you know?
1630
01:40:48,999 --> 01:40:51,784
A lot of my phrasing
when I sing is from you.
1631
01:40:53,873 --> 01:40:55,701
I'm glad you're my mother.
1632
01:40:56,702 --> 01:40:58,530
I'm glad you gave me the things
you gave me.
1633
01:41:01,794 --> 01:41:03,231
- Yeah.
-Yeah!
1634
01:41:03,405 --> 01:41:04,580
You know how much
I love you, ma.
1635
01:41:04,754 --> 01:41:06,277
I love you too.
1636
01:41:06,451 --> 01:41:08,801
I love you.
I love you so much.
1637
01:41:09,933 --> 01:41:11,587
- I love you.
-
1638
01:41:15,417 --> 01:41:16,287
Thank you.
1639
01:41:19,116 --> 01:41:23,947
♪ Well, maybe
I'm just too young, oh ♪
1640
01:41:24,208 --> 01:41:30,867
♪ To keep good love
From going wrong ♪
1641
01:41:35,480 --> 01:41:37,178
♪ Oh ♪
1642
01:41:38,309 --> 01:41:44,533
♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh ♪
1643
01:41:44,707 --> 01:41:50,626
♪ Yeah, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪
1644
01:41:50,800 --> 01:41:56,110
♪ Oh, lover
You should've come over ♪
1645
01:41:59,635 --> 01:42:04,422
♪ Well, I feel too young
To hold on ♪
1646
01:42:05,902 --> 01:42:10,080
♪ And I'm much too old
To break free and run ♪
1647
01:42:11,037 --> 01:42:16,304
♪ Too deaf, dumb, and blind
To see the damage I've done ♪
1648
01:42:16,826 --> 01:42:22,658
♪ Sweet lover
You, you should've come over ♪
1649
01:42:24,268 --> 01:42:27,228
♪ How long
Will I wait for you ♪
1650
01:42:27,532 --> 01:42:31,145
♪ Lover, lover, lover ♪
1651
01:42:31,319 --> 01:42:34,322
♪ Lover, love, love, love ♪
1652
01:42:34,496 --> 01:42:37,847
♪ Lover, lover ♪
1653
01:42:38,021 --> 01:42:44,506
♪ Lover ♪
1654
01:42:45,898 --> 01:42:50,468
♪ You should've come over ♪
1655
01:42:52,035 --> 01:42:58,911
♪ 'Cause it's not too late ♪
1656
01:43:09,661 --> 01:43:12,316
Thanks a lot, everybody.
Goodnight.
1657
01:43:18,888 --> 01:43:20,063
You were beautiful.
1658
01:43:21,064 --> 01:43:22,457
Thanks a lot. And I love you.
1659
01:43:31,074 --> 01:43:33,555
♪ Lady, all the troubles ♪
1660
01:43:33,729 --> 01:43:37,646
♪ Are my fright, I disgust you ♪
1661
01:43:38,690 --> 01:43:45,436
♪ Feel the power
You cut the truth into you ♪
1662
01:43:46,481 --> 01:43:53,139
♪ Why do you think I did not
On this rely ♪
1663
01:43:53,314 --> 01:43:55,577
♪ I could kiss you ♪
1664
01:43:55,751 --> 01:43:59,363
♪ With lines of escape
In my mouth ♪
1665
01:43:59,537 --> 01:44:03,324
♪ Ah-ha-ha ♪
1666
01:44:10,983 --> 01:44:13,247
♪ Please, let me bring back ♪
1667
01:44:13,421 --> 01:44:17,381
♪ These gifts of mine
To the woman ♪
1668
01:44:18,295 --> 01:44:20,515
♪ Stars shined on my back ♪
1669
01:44:20,689 --> 01:44:25,563
♪ As I slept and knew you ♪
1670
01:44:25,737 --> 01:44:29,132
♪ You didn't leave it all ♪
1671
01:44:29,611 --> 01:44:32,875
♪ You made an even call ♪
1672
01:44:33,310 --> 01:44:36,748
♪ My belly released the stars ♪
1673
01:44:36,922 --> 01:44:43,233
♪ And tears between the scars ♪
1674
01:44:47,803 --> 01:44:48,847
♪ Ooh ♪
1675
01:45:02,861 --> 01:45:06,909
♪ Below this we'll end here
Until the end of time ♪
1676
01:45:07,083 --> 01:45:11,087
♪ Beyond the moment
That ends our bondage ♪
1677
01:45:11,348 --> 01:45:14,351
♪ I am your failed
Husband contender ♪
1678
01:45:14,525 --> 01:45:17,702
♪ I'm your loan shark of bliss ♪
1679
01:45:17,876 --> 01:45:21,315
♪ This dream you've ridden on ♪
1680
01:45:21,489 --> 01:45:25,406
♪ Turns your world
To explosions ♪
1681
01:45:25,841 --> 01:45:29,323
♪ I need to be alone ♪
1682
01:45:29,497 --> 01:45:35,024
♪ To heal this bleeding stone ♪
1683
01:45:35,285 --> 01:45:40,246
♪ Now, smell
The rain of London ♪
1684
01:45:40,421 --> 01:45:43,989
♪ It still insists ♪
1685
01:45:44,425 --> 01:45:49,125
♪ That we beg for our ♪
1686
01:45:49,647 --> 01:45:53,259
♪ Purity ♪
1687
01:45:53,956 --> 01:46:00,528
♪ As if we are pure ♪
1688
01:46:00,702 --> 01:46:06,055
♪ In the reign
Of our contentment ♪
1689
01:46:06,316 --> 01:46:12,278
♪ As if I can think of ♪
1690
01:46:12,453 --> 01:46:15,630
♪ This ♪
1691
01:46:16,021 --> 01:46:20,548
♪ No more ♪